And dance out to the moon as we did in those golden days
As I just told Ken (WIU Ken, not WMU Kenny)
I've been fighting a losing battle against my sanity in the last two weeks.
Zoning out to the point where i drive off roads
visions of putting a gun to my head, or others doing it for me
Bt I'm not going to go get help.
I remember the doctors
I remember the pills
And I refuse. I won't be their guinea pig anymore
Those days were nothing but unimaginable pain. I won't give up my self for a bit of sanity.
I'm too stubborn to lose to something so trivial as going psychotic.
And for the record, just cuz my mind sees it, doesn't mean I'm stupid enough to do it. I.e., I'm not going to shoot myself. I'm not going to fucking give up that easily.
Stupid brain....
I'd get filthy drunk again, but I have work in the morning
I've been fighting a losing battle against my sanity in the last two weeks.
Zoning out to the point where i drive off roads
visions of putting a gun to my head, or others doing it for me
Bt I'm not going to go get help.
I remember the doctors
I remember the pills
And I refuse. I won't be their guinea pig anymore
Those days were nothing but unimaginable pain. I won't give up my self for a bit of sanity.
I'm too stubborn to lose to something so trivial as going psychotic.
And for the record, just cuz my mind sees it, doesn't mean I'm stupid enough to do it. I.e., I'm not going to shoot myself. I'm not going to fucking give up that easily.
Stupid brain....
I'd get filthy drunk again, but I have work in the morning