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I'm not sure how this weekend is going to go.
People are coming up to celebrate a double birthday for Chuck and Rich.
Which means people and festivities.
And then Chuck said something about just celebrating mine while we're at it. Wee....
But I don't really know if I want that kind of socialness right now.
Lately, I just wanna revert, watch some anime by myself in my room, with some popcorn and hot chocolate.
No, not alone, but...
And it's this, my stupidest thought, that gets this post a friends only.
Why do I look at couples and think "Why can't I have something like that?"
I have a girlfriend, yet... it isn't seeming to satisfy me, and I'm not sure why.
I've been meaning to tell Dani, but... the first night I wa passed out
Then last night, we got into an argument because of my not caring to eat after the Great Wall incident, and then I had to read, followed by more restless nightmare-filled delirious sleep.
I barely remember the fact that Dani was there eithe rnight.
Which is horrible, but... that's ohw my brain is right now.
I'm totally fucked up right now, which proves you don't need alcohol when you can just starve yourself into hallucination.
In one week I'll be a year older. Instead of punching me 22 times, please, please, put 22 bullets in me. Or make me lose 22oz of blood. Or make me drink 22 shots of tequila. that last one sounds best, let's do that
People are coming up to celebrate a double birthday for Chuck and Rich.
Which means people and festivities.
And then Chuck said something about just celebrating mine while we're at it. Wee....
But I don't really know if I want that kind of socialness right now.
Lately, I just wanna revert, watch some anime by myself in my room, with some popcorn and hot chocolate.
No, not alone, but...
And it's this, my stupidest thought, that gets this post a friends only.
Why do I look at couples and think "Why can't I have something like that?"
I have a girlfriend, yet... it isn't seeming to satisfy me, and I'm not sure why.
I've been meaning to tell Dani, but... the first night I wa passed out
Then last night, we got into an argument because of my not caring to eat after the Great Wall incident, and then I had to read, followed by more restless nightmare-filled delirious sleep.
I barely remember the fact that Dani was there eithe rnight.
Which is horrible, but... that's ohw my brain is right now.
I'm totally fucked up right now, which proves you don't need alcohol when you can just starve yourself into hallucination.
In one week I'll be a year older. Instead of punching me 22 times, please, please, put 22 bullets in me. Or make me lose 22oz of blood. Or make me drink 22 shots of tequila. that last one sounds best, let's do that