Hey everyone, long time no blog.

[nekokitana]

I am so busy these days. I finally back in January got to start working. I absolutely hate posting out to the field. It really sucks ass. I don't know how long I will have to do it. Me and my boyfriend have been going out for almost 3 months now. It will be 3 months next week!!!!!! I know that 3 months isn't the longest time in the world, but I definetely know in the very depths of my soul that he is the one I want to spend my life with. I am most definetely sure this time. Phoenix was not the one. I was just blided by the fact that I don't want to be alone. I look back on the relationship that Phoenix and I had, and I can truly say that marrying him would have been a major mistake, and would surely gone down in flames before it had a chance to get off the ground. In my new b/f, I have found everything that I have ever looked for in a man X 1,0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 I can't even see myself with anyone else ever, I don't want anyone else, and I believe now that all my past relationships were wasted time. I wish that I could have met my beau sooner than I did. It would have sped up the process. He has been there for me through a lot of crap. The same situation happened with the pain pills as when I got my wisdom teeth on the right side pulled. I went a little nuts, and I wanted to fight, that is what ultimately broke up Phoenix and I. He couldn't take the heat, so he ran. My new beau, sat with my while I cried. He comforted me in my time of need, and he was there for me. He didn't run away at the first sign of trouble. He is a real man. I don't want to go another day without him. He is the one I should have been engaged to him in the first place, but it is funny how things actually work out. It is funny that I met him now, in this crazy place. He told me that he wants to marry me someday. I can't wait for him to ask me. And I really don't care what anyone thinks about that. It is mine and his turn to be happy because we have both had very rough lives, and we have both had to work very hard and still are having to work very hard for what we want in life. We have the most perfect relationship. I have never really loved anyone as much as him. I have told him my deepest secrets, and he has told me his. People actually envy the relationship that he and I have. Everyone else says that we will probably be married within this year. If that happens, then, I will be the happiest person on the face of the planet. I can think of nothing more that would make me happy than to be his bride. I love him so very much. We had a pregnancy scare a little while back. We were both excited and scared at the same time. He told me that if I were pregnant, that he would ask me to marry him, and that he would take care of the baby and I. I don't know many other 20 yr olds who would be willing to take on that responsibility, and be excited about it. I hit a parked car with his car the other night. He was in the passenger seat. He didn't even get mad. He gave me a hug, and asked me if I was okay. He told me that even if I would have totalled his car, he still wouldn't have been mad at me. Any other person on the face of the planet, except for myself, probably would have yelled and screamed at me about that, but he just smiled and cracked a joke. He is the greatest man I have ever met. I look up to him so much, and I love him even more than I admire him. He is absolutely the most handsome guy ever.
I have finally caught my piece of heaven.....My angel.