why?
Why do I have to do stupid things. I have messed up the most wonderful thing in my life. I think that I have lost my phoenix. I love him so much. I hurt him, and now I am paying for it because he won't even talk to me. You know that saying, you don't know what you have until it is gone? Well, I do know what I have, or had, and I don't want to lose him. He means the world to me. I will do anything it takes to make our relationship. I know that if he will give me another chance that things will be better. I just hope that he hasn't given up on me and us. I couldn't bear it. I wouldn't hurt myself, if he has, because I don't want to and because I made a promise to him. I know that he says that things like that can't be promised away, but I love him so much that I couldn't break my promise even if I wanted to, and I have never broken a promise to anyone ever. I just wish that he would talk to me. The silence is killing me. I can't stop crying. I wish that I could take it all back. I know that he loves me. I know it. I am soo sorry. I feel so helpless right now. I am so terrified that he will say that it is over. Please, I beg if anyone is listening in the heavens, please don't let my phoenix turn away from me. Let him see that I am sincere and that I love him. Please don't take my soulmate away from me. PLEASE. I BEG!!! I WILL DO ANYTHING. I CAN'T LOSE HIM. I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. PLEASE JUST LET THERE BE HOPE FOR US AND NOT LET IT BE TOO LATE.