Insomnia... How I loathe thee
Insomnia... the college student's savior when cramming for that final, the artist's sadistic muse, the new mother's hope... the very bane of my existence...
Its strange to think, whenever I tell someone I suffer from insomnia, they give me the look of, "Are you kidding? I would kill to have more time in the day to do things." But thats the catch, I fear... Just cause I have insomnia, does not mean I am more productive, hardly... I could name about 20 things I could be doing with my current spell of wakefulness, and yet, here I sit, bitching about my lack of being able to sleep... Go me...
Heres my problem with insomnia, I want to be able to tell it when and where it can flare up... I actually ENJOY sleep... I get lots of it, when I'm able... I think I managed to sleep a whole 22 hours at once, recently too... My bladder hated me for a week for that, but Gods I felt great.
Hmm, maybe thats my problem... I marathon sleep when I can... Hah, nah, cant be.
I've been, afflicted with insomnia as far back as I can remember, hell its probably my ADHD trying to find an outlet when I havent been a crazed artist in a while... Ohhhh... Well then... Fuck you brain, that wasnt fucking funny. Stop laughing damnit, I mean it, I'll stab you with a q-tip... Yeah, thats right, I'm the boss baby.
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Umm, where was I?
Insomnia... Yes, thats right...
Yeah, it kind of annoys me when people are amazed that I actually hate having insomnia... Yeah, its only fun for about the first 10 years you have it. Laying awake, staring at the dark ceiling, hearing completely incoherent thought patterns gets old after a while... And its damn confusing, because I can never remember if the "Committee" ever decided on things... Yeah, the voices in my head shall be saved for another rant, remind me later, ok?
So, umm... Yes, to finish up, Insomnia, its evil, and I'm tired of being cursed with it...
Its strange to think, whenever I tell someone I suffer from insomnia, they give me the look of, "Are you kidding? I would kill to have more time in the day to do things." But thats the catch, I fear... Just cause I have insomnia, does not mean I am more productive, hardly... I could name about 20 things I could be doing with my current spell of wakefulness, and yet, here I sit, bitching about my lack of being able to sleep... Go me...
Heres my problem with insomnia, I want to be able to tell it when and where it can flare up... I actually ENJOY sleep... I get lots of it, when I'm able... I think I managed to sleep a whole 22 hours at once, recently too... My bladder hated me for a week for that, but Gods I felt great.
Hmm, maybe thats my problem... I marathon sleep when I can... Hah, nah, cant be.
I've been, afflicted with insomnia as far back as I can remember, hell its probably my ADHD trying to find an outlet when I havent been a crazed artist in a while... Ohhhh... Well then... Fuck you brain, that wasnt fucking funny. Stop laughing damnit, I mean it, I'll stab you with a q-tip... Yeah, thats right, I'm the boss baby.
....
Umm, where was I?
Insomnia... Yes, thats right...
Yeah, it kind of annoys me when people are amazed that I actually hate having insomnia... Yeah, its only fun for about the first 10 years you have it. Laying awake, staring at the dark ceiling, hearing completely incoherent thought patterns gets old after a while... And its damn confusing, because I can never remember if the "Committee" ever decided on things... Yeah, the voices in my head shall be saved for another rant, remind me later, ok?
So, umm... Yes, to finish up, Insomnia, its evil, and I'm tired of being cursed with it...