Say My Name
Title: Say My Name
Author: neko-desukara
Pairing: Ryu x Ren [Odagiri Ryu x Kazama Ren]
Genre: Romance
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Gokusen characters do not belong to me, they belong to... saa... ^________^
Warning: English not good. Sumimasen deshita.
A/N: This is supposed to be a one-shot fic but I couldn’t suppress the story into just a single chapter. But then, it’ll probably take 3 to 4 chapters only. Un-beta-ed.
Chapter 1:
We did it once again...this time...
I’m not sure when it all begun. But one thing I’m sure is that my life ends before it all got even started.
My name is Odagiri Ryu and I don’t know why I am still breathing, what’s keeping me living in this world when the only reason I have suddenly gone and left me all alone. I’m not even sure when was the last time I had thought about it, about all of this. I feel like I came from the longest sleep of my life. But there’s one person that never leaves my mind, my dreams and my heart. He’s all that matters to me. I totally forgot what my life supposed to be when he’s gone, but I will never forget about him. He changed my life and he will always remains within me. Perhaps I could say that he is my life...
~+~
“Ohayou!”
I looked at the boy beside me. His name is Kazama Ren who just graduated in high school. He’s staring at me with a smile on his face, lying sideways on the bed facing me while I was laying my back and we are both naked under a thin white cloth.
We are living together for months now or should I say he’s keeping me here at his house since he’s living alone. His parents died a long time ago and he and his older sister was left when he were just a kid. Now that he graduated from high school, he decided to support him self and not depending to his sister.
Still, I am 4 years older than him.
He goes to work every morning and I am always left behind. I don’t care if I was left alone, or even living together with him as I apparently didn’t care for anything anymore. I don’t know why he’s doing all of this, or if he loves me, I don’t even know.
I don’t love him. And I don’t care.
I don’t care about anything or anyone. I don’t even care about myself. Sometimes I had a thought that maybe it is better for me to just...die...
But he came into my life when I was ready to end it.
~+~
“One pork ramen here, Kuma-san!” Ren gave his one charming smile to Kuma as he was taking his seat across the blonde guy who apparently didn’t mind it.
The blonde seemed like lost staring in front penetrating him. This is the fifth time he saw this guy here at Kuma’s ramen shop. He always took a seat across the guy but apparently the blonde was too lost in his own space to notice his surrounding.
Ren was looking for a job the first time he had a glance with the blonde guy from that shop. He was too hungry to look for some family restaurant that time so he decided to have ramen for his dinner. There’s no vacant seat that moment except the one in front of the guy who didn’t even touched his food and just blankly staring nowhere. Same as with his second time. The third time, he find himself ogling around the shop, looking for a certain person before he decided to eat. And if he didn’t saw who he was looking for, he will just pass and went straight to his new small apartment...until he finally spotted the blonde once again. Same old story. The difference was that he doesn’t look as healthy as time passes by. He wonders why... Next thing he knew, he was looking for an answer. He wanted to know about the guy named Odagiri Ryu.
He was able to know little about him from Kuma, the owner of the ramen shop. And the possible reason why Ryu acted like that...and the reason was...he lost his best friend... Kuma said that Yabuki Hayato, Ryu’s best friend died from protecting his best friend’s life...Ryu’s life...
Now is the fifth time he’ll eat ramen in front of Ryu but he isn’t quite sure if he was being noticed by the blonde. This time he doesn’t feel like eating his noodles too. He was staring at the man in front of him.
When Ryu stood up, he also stood up. He decided to follow the blonde this time wherever the latter goes. There’s something about him that Ren wants to know but he isn’t quite sure what it was. Maybe he felt sad for Ryu from losing an important person in his life and he somehow had a feeling to help consoling him to get over it.
Ren was just following the path the man was taking. Ryu suddenly halted at the corner in front of a highway. He seems like he wanted to cross. Ren waits behind the blonde. He was waiting for the traffic light to get red so that the vehicles, from their high dashing speed would stop for the intervening time. But from the corner of his eyes, he saw Ryu made a step. He averts his stare to the man in front of him, his heart beats jumps fast when he saw the blonde suddenly decided to cross the way against the speeding cars.
Buzzes from every vehicle filled the air. Ren’s legs automatically stride toward the man crossing and quickly grabbed the man’s arms and draw him back to the corner where they stood.
Ryu look at the man saved him.
Ren, for the first time felt the stare given by Odagiri Ryu.
“Hayato...” the older boy murmured.
“Eh?” Ren slightly startled when he was called by the blonde’s dead friend’s name. He was about to say his own name when Ryu suddenly lost consciousness. He immediately supports his arms and hugged the blonde so that the unconscious man doesn’t fall to the ground.
~+~
Ryu was taken into Ren’s room.
Ren carefully laid the blonde on his bed. His body maybe lack of nutrients from not eaten properly for how many days now. He let the older boy get some rest and he’ll just ask the boy’s home address later tomorrow.
~+~
When Ryu regains consciousness, he looked around and found himself lying on someone’s bed. He saw food on top of the table beside the bed. He suffered from dry throat so he decided to drink some water, then he finally feels the pain inside his crying stomach and the food seemingly inviting him.
After his stomach was full of food, he felt sleepy once again. He laid his back against the bed and closed his eyes. A moment after, he was once again lost in oblivion.
~+~
The moment Ryu gradually opens his eyes, he saw a boy sitting at the edge of the bed.
“Hayato...” Ryu whispered and a sad smile curved on his dry lips as he tried to sit up, and then tears run down on his face that makes Ren startled.
Ren once again heard Ryu called him with his departed friend’s name. He assumed that the blonde may be still under the state of loneliness from losing his only best friend, that’s why he could only see what he wanted to see. But he is not Hayato.
“I-I’m not Haya-” Ren’s sentence was stopped by a sudden mouth crashed onto his. His eyes almost popped out from surprise when the blonde guy unexpectedly kissed him. His heart beat skipped but later recovers and starts making a loud noise inside his chest.
Ryu doesn’t stop and doesn’t want to stop. He was hungrily kissing the boy that he thought his best friend...and his lover. He missed his lover so much it hurts to think how long he’s been waiting. He started forcing his tongue in Ren’s mouth. Ren didn’t know what to do. He doesn’t even know why he didn’t pull his self away from the intruder exploring the cavern of his mouth.
Then Ren felt a cold hand hold his right hand and placed it to the blonde’s chest. He can feel how fast Ryu’s heartbeat through the fabric, maybe as fast as his own. It somehow sends a thousand butterflies to his stomach. His hand guided lower to the older boy’s tummy but doesn’t stop there either. They got lower to the rim of the blonde’s pants.
Ren unnoticeably was answering back Ryu’s kisses while he was scared from the back of his mind about where the hand directing his. Every time their tongue collides, every movement of their hands, his heart banged within his ribcage and his manhood twitched at the same time.
His hand which is terribly shaking was guided to open a single button of blonde’s pants and then unzipped it down. And another banged from his heart when he sensed the bulge touched his quivering hand. His throat seemed having sand from dryness as he tried to swallow hard.
“Touch me...” the older boy pleads when their lips parted to gasp some air. Ren needed some air. He felt like he runs a thousand miles as his heart beats insanely fast that makes his breath becomes uneasy.
As he was busy minding the beat of his heart and the air he was breathing, he tried to think about the next moved he’s gonna take. He never had done this before. He never watched sex videos among men, neither read some yaoi manga for instance... but they’re both male. He knows how to give pleasure to himself and the man kissing him apparently wanting the same pleasure. But as far as it going, he doesn’t know why he was not stopping.
He hesitantly slides his finger into the blonde’s boxer. His forefinger made contact from the tip of Ryu’s aching manhood. The blonde gasps as he leans his head onto Ren’s shoulder. Ren swallowed once again. He moved his finger lower, cupping the hardening member of the blonde then start wrapping his fingers around Ryu’s cock. He can feel his own cock twitched and becomes harder every time the blonde makes a moan. His trembling hand started to move up and down upon Ryu’s length when he feels a hand get in touch with his angry crotch through his pants. He gulped as a hand suddenly trying to release his aching member from its dungeon. He feels how the zipper vibrates when it was pulling down. A moan escapes from his lips. He needed more as he tries to move his own hand from a slow pace until he has hurriedly stroking his hand as if he was feeling it to. Ryu keeps on moaning a bit loud from bliss and started to bite Ren’s shoulder hard that the younger boy have to bit his lower lip to help him deal with the pain but also feeling the pleasure from the blonde’s fingers wrapped around his length and teasing the slit of its head by his index finger.
Ren’s stroke becomes frantic as fast as a lightning that makes Ryu cried Hayato’s name out loud from the madness sensation Ren’s hand was giving him. He felt the same speed brushing upon his own cock that he couldn’t help a hot fluid over flown from the tip of his cock, the same time he felt the same hot juice covers his right hand.
They’re both catching their breath as they were not taking a single move yet. Ryu, still leaning on Ren’s shoulder, feeling more relaxed now while the latter was starting to realize what was he had done... He just made sex... well its still sex, with someone he hardly knew not to mention with a boy older than him.
He felt an awkward moment. But from the back of his mind he still remembers how Ryu calls for his friend’s name and somehow he felt uncomfortable...
And come to realize that maybe he unnoticeably fell in love with Odagiri Ryu... who still intensely in love with Yabuki...Hayato...
Ren placed his arms around the older boy who’s still leaning against his shoulder. “I’m not...Hayato...” he then murmured.
Ryu’s eyes got widened, he felt some cold water splatter all over him. It seems like he’s finally awake for the first time and becomes conscious that the voice he heard wasn’t really spoken by Hayato. And suddenly every thing comes back to him... and remembers...that his best friend...was...gone...
Ren felt the blonde’s body stiffen under his arms. Ryu maybe had the realization by now... Ren doesn’t want to let go so he tights his embrace even more.
“Kazama Ren... Call me Ren...”
~+~
--------------//
A/N: First, I will always go for an AkaKame pairing.
But I think Haruma is super cute I couldn’t help my self not to think of him with my beloved Kazuya. I really like Haruma’s bishounen face just like how I love Jin’s.
But I hope you like this one too.