Hello. When I read this kind of post, I feel I have to post a comment, even if I'm not always good at advice, it is important to drop by to let you know I care.
True, at some points of our on line friendship, we communicated more, though e-mails, forums, etc. But that doesn't mean I have forgotten you, and I know you haven't forgotten me either. I care. I've been looking at your life from a distance, and seeing mainly the positive aspects of it. What do I know? that you started going to college, at Soka, and Soka seems like a really pleasant little university (I looked up for it on the internet). I also saw you added many people from Soka as a friend, on facebook, more than one hundred, but I know it doesn't mean they are "friends", because myself, I added people from Hendrix. I can figure out who they are, whether they are freshmen, sophmore, junior or senior, but I cannot give much information about them -- some of them are just friendly and random acquaintances. Another positive aspect of your life, is that you have a girlfriend who is wonderful (at least to you). A pity she lives so far away...
True, they are negative aspects to your life too... Your brothers seems not to have changed much in two or three years: they are still fighting a lot. I hoped for you they would grow out of it.
It was likely that your mother would oppose your decision to go to WA. Mothers are like that. But still, you will go, won't you? you can compromise and spend some time at your mother's before going there, but you cannot allow her to deprive you from seeing your love.
I really hope your mother will accept your sexual identity. I myself used to be uncomfortable with homosexuality, but I changed my mind. Being good friends with homosexual people made me understand them. I feel that your mother sometimes makes you unhappy, but I also think that parents always keep loving their children, even if they are not happy with their children's decisions.
It is good that you go and see a counsellor. Sometimes, just talking help. A teacher was trying to convince me that the year was almost over. I don't want the year to be over, because I'm happy at hendrix, but you might want the year to be over to visit your girlfriend. Here is what he said: "febbruary is a short month" (29 days, plus it is already begun). March is a short month because there is spring break in the middle, and you'll do something exciting for it. April is a short month because you get ready for the exams. May is a short month because you take exams. Then, summer break!
take care. xoxo (I know, I didn't use xoxo much before) Warozaka.
That's part of the problem--I'm surrounded by people, but I hardly ever so much as talk to people who care, and I've become so irritable that it's nigh impossible for me to build more positive relationships right now because of it. I'm trying to be good, but....it's not working well yet.
And I'm trying to think of the positives, but dealing with my mother is increasingly difficult, and even though I know she loves me, she doesn't love ALL of me, nor does she support me. And push may come to shove. I'll deal with it, if it does, but I don't want it to. I've written her a letter which I'm going to send, though. Hopefully it will do some good.
Thank you for commenting. *hugs* It's just not something that can be snapped out of; it's going to take me a long time and a lot of mental effort and support to get through it, and hopefully things will get better afterward.
True, at some points of our on line friendship, we communicated more, though e-mails, forums, etc. But that doesn't mean I have forgotten you, and I know you haven't forgotten me either. I care. I've been looking at your life from a distance, and seeing mainly the positive aspects of it. What do I know? that you started going to college, at Soka, and Soka seems like a really pleasant little university (I looked up for it on the internet). I also saw you added many people from Soka as a friend, on facebook, more than one hundred, but I know it doesn't mean they are "friends", because myself, I added people from Hendrix. I can figure out who they are, whether they are freshmen, sophmore, junior or senior, but I cannot give much information about them -- some of them are just friendly and random acquaintances.
Another positive aspect of your life, is that you have a girlfriend who is wonderful (at least to you). A pity she lives so far away...
True, they are negative aspects to your life too...
Your brothers seems not to have changed much in two or three years: they are still fighting a lot. I hoped for you they would grow out of it.
It was likely that your mother would oppose your decision to go to WA. Mothers are like that. But still, you will go, won't you? you can compromise and spend some time at your mother's before going there, but you cannot allow her to deprive you from seeing your love.
I really hope your mother will accept your sexual identity. I myself used to be uncomfortable with homosexuality, but I changed my mind. Being good friends with homosexual people made me understand them.
I feel that your mother sometimes makes you unhappy, but I also think that parents always keep loving their children, even if they are not happy with their children's decisions.
It is good that you go and see a counsellor. Sometimes, just talking help.
A teacher was trying to convince me that the year was almost over. I don't want the year to be over, because I'm happy at hendrix, but you might want the year to be over to visit your girlfriend. Here is what he said:
"febbruary is a short month" (29 days, plus it is already begun). March is a short month because there is spring break in the middle, and you'll do something exciting for it. April is a short month because you get ready for the exams. May is a short month because you take exams. Then, summer break!
take care.
xoxo (I know, I didn't use xoxo much before)
Warozaka.
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And I'm trying to think of the positives, but dealing with my mother is increasingly difficult, and even though I know she loves me, she doesn't love ALL of me, nor does she support me. And push may come to shove. I'll deal with it, if it does, but I don't want it to. I've written her a letter which I'm going to send, though. Hopefully it will do some good.
Thank you for commenting. *hugs* It's just not something that can be snapped out of; it's going to take me a long time and a lot of mental effort and support to get through it, and hopefully things will get better afterward.
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