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Grah. I don't get it. I've been getting more and more, like, fucked up, in a... well, not quite depressed way... Again, depressed sounds too angsty, and it's nothing like that. I don't wallow around, wanting people to feel sorry for me, but all the other 'feeling miserable' symptoms pretty much apply across the board. The worst part about it is that I don't know why. It must be some sort of rut-related scenario, but I can't figure out any of the causes, nor any path to choose that would lead to any sort of resolution.
When I sit down and think about it, I've gone through probably a dozen times of my life similar to this, but they usually wind up being 'solved' by some life-changing occurance. (Typically moving to another part of the country. That's not really an option, at the moment, and most of the moves wound up seeing me back in Jersey regardless, so it all seems sort of pointless.) I'm thinking it may be time to look into seeing a psychologist about this all, again. That usually seems to put things into perspective. Unfortunately, again, the money thing is an issue, there.
And if this were just causing me to feel down and alienate various people, it wouldn't be so bad, but it's also causing me trouble in class, due to a total disinterest in completing any homework or doing any kinds of studying. That's a bad thing, and entirely unacceptable.
But what to do about it? Who knows?
In other, totally unrelated news, I think I need to meet some new people. My social circle, as it is, isn't exactly living up to my needs.
Also, I'm totally fucking humble. Don't forget that.
When I sit down and think about it, I've gone through probably a dozen times of my life similar to this, but they usually wind up being 'solved' by some life-changing occurance. (Typically moving to another part of the country. That's not really an option, at the moment, and most of the moves wound up seeing me back in Jersey regardless, so it all seems sort of pointless.) I'm thinking it may be time to look into seeing a psychologist about this all, again. That usually seems to put things into perspective. Unfortunately, again, the money thing is an issue, there.
And if this were just causing me to feel down and alienate various people, it wouldn't be so bad, but it's also causing me trouble in class, due to a total disinterest in completing any homework or doing any kinds of studying. That's a bad thing, and entirely unacceptable.
But what to do about it? Who knows?
In other, totally unrelated news, I think I need to meet some new people. My social circle, as it is, isn't exactly living up to my needs.
Also, I'm totally fucking humble. Don't forget that.