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you know that feeling you get when you're upset? like there's a lump in your throat, and no matter how many times you try to swallow it down, it still stays, bugging the hell out of you. your heart pounds faster than normal, and everything inside you is telling you to rip out every last strand of hair from your stupid excuse for a head. your hands shake because of the tension that only your skin is holding back. knots start to form in your neck, and no amount of massaging will make them disappear. sometimes you can actually feel the pain in your heart, and you wonder if it'll ever go away, and if you ever really want it to go away. you get so used to it that you're not really sure if you want to part with it. it's almost like an addiction. a craving. a sad and strange desire to whallow in self-pity. rather pathetic, but true. i know that everyone knows what i'm talking about. but does anyone give a damn? that's the kicker i guess. people are so quick to criticize and kick me when i'm down, but when they go through days and moods like this, it's ok...yeah