...i don't get it
what is it gonna take for me to get to you the way that you've gotten to me? i try so hard and i feel like i've gotten no where. it's a very rare ocassion when you try...but you try. like, what do i do on those ocassions that makes you try? what do i say? how do i act? if you just tell me then i'll be that all the time for you because i like you that much...i want you that much. can't you see how much i want you? you know that i do. why don't you let me in? are you afraid? if you are, then what are you afraid of? these are all the things that i just don't understand, so help me out here. i'm not gonna keep trying unless i have a good reason to, and right now i'm only holding onto the fact that you try sometimes too. like, whenever i tell myself that i'm gonna give up on you, you do something that makes me think you want me too, so the cycle starts all over again. just stop playing games with me and be real!
i can take it.
i can take it.