(no subject)
with a stamp on your forehead
So that you will never forget that you're a reject
and you're no one
and you're nothing
little impotent one
bow to no one
trust in nothing
little impotent one
-disturbed
i've saved my entire blurty journal.. every entry since september 2003.. an overwhelming wave of emotions on each page. Makes my head spin - and that's only a couple years right there.
I went to sleep around 3:30 last night.. that's normal for me.
What isn't normal is that I wasn't upset, angry, sad or pissed just before falling asleep. I woke up feeling refreshed, my chest hurts and I'm coughing and my head's spinning after reading all the entries and high-tide rollercoaster rides I've been on the last couple of years.. and I want so bad to be alone right now and as I'm writing this I def gotta fast heart rate and the only word to describe this rush is adrenaline. Mudvayne rants their hate-anthem's at me through the speakers, my hair blows just across my the tops of my eyes from the fan, and I don't know why I'm writing this. I may erase it and just not update.. I guess we shall see.
"it doesn't exist, it doesn't exist (truth!)4x" - vayne
no one loves you, they just love what you do for them - manson
These hurricane pain storms are inner.. you can't see them on my face, you can't find a single trace of them other than the words I put down on these journals.. and I come here cuz its my f*ckin right to and so im gonna get on here and VENT!!! bizzatchez!!!
why do i feel alone..why do i sing myself to sleep.. why do i think about everyone's needs but my own.. why do i refuse to give up?...one thing I dont' question is why I love her..
when passions lost
and all the trust is gone
way too far, for way too long
children crying
cast out and neglected
only in a world so cold
only in a world so cold
hold the hand
of your best friend
look into their eyes
and watch them drift away
some might say
we've done the wrong things
only in a world so cold
only in a world so cold
-world so cold - vayne
i hear that everyday. don't know if i agree with it.
the other part is
burning whispers
remind me of the days
I was left alone
in a world this cold
guilty of the same things
purple flag and cause
I'm left alone
In a world so cold..
keep your thorns
I'm flying away!
NICE!!!!! If I wasn't all stopped up and sounding like a 10 year old right now I'd be singing it.
hold me like i'd hold you, see me like i see you, kiss me each time as though is was the first, the arms around you have never been more real, the winds change, your smile grows, you're safe, you're not sorry, you can see the very energy waves between us in the air sometimes, you never believed before now, you never hated before now, you never loved before now, you never needed like you do now, laughter is one of hundreds on the list of mutual.
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So that you will never forget that you're a reject
and you're no one
and you're nothing
little impotent one
bow to no one
trust in nothing
little impotent one
-disturbed
i've saved my entire blurty journal.. every entry since september 2003.. an overwhelming wave of emotions on each page. Makes my head spin - and that's only a couple years right there.
I went to sleep around 3:30 last night.. that's normal for me.
What isn't normal is that I wasn't upset, angry, sad or pissed just before falling asleep. I woke up feeling refreshed, my chest hurts and I'm coughing and my head's spinning after reading all the entries and high-tide rollercoaster rides I've been on the last couple of years.. and I want so bad to be alone right now and as I'm writing this I def gotta fast heart rate and the only word to describe this rush is adrenaline. Mudvayne rants their hate-anthem's at me through the speakers, my hair blows just across my the tops of my eyes from the fan, and I don't know why I'm writing this. I may erase it and just not update.. I guess we shall see.
"it doesn't exist, it doesn't exist (truth!)4x" - vayne
no one loves you, they just love what you do for them - manson
These hurricane pain storms are inner.. you can't see them on my face, you can't find a single trace of them other than the words I put down on these journals.. and I come here cuz its my f*ckin right to and so im gonna get on here and VENT!!! bizzatchez!!!
why do i feel alone..why do i sing myself to sleep.. why do i think about everyone's needs but my own.. why do i refuse to give up?...one thing I dont' question is why I love her..
when passions lost
and all the trust is gone
way too far, for way too long
children crying
cast out and neglected
only in a world so cold
only in a world so cold
hold the hand
of your best friend
look into their eyes
and watch them drift away
some might say
we've done the wrong things
only in a world so cold
only in a world so cold
-world so cold - vayne
i hear that everyday. don't know if i agree with it.
the other part is
burning whispers
remind me of the days
I was left alone
in a world this cold
guilty of the same things
purple flag and cause
I'm left alone
In a world so cold..
keep your thorns
I'm flying away!
NICE!!!!! If I wasn't all stopped up and sounding like a 10 year old right now I'd be singing it.
hold me like i'd hold you, see me like i see you, kiss me each time as though is was the first, the arms around you have never been more real, the winds change, your smile grows, you're safe, you're not sorry, you can see the very energy waves between us in the air sometimes, you never believed before now, you never hated before now, you never loved before now, you never needed like you do now, laughter is one of hundreds on the list of mutual.
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