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So tonight sucked ass compared to last night.
Last night Tyler drug us out to Garrison rock. You ask "Where's that?" I'll tell you. In the middle of the fucking woods. That's right. We trolloped through the woods, six of us, to see a big rock and possibly die. But everything was alright, and it was actually pretty fun. Even though Jesse and I were close to shitting our pants to begin with. It was a good time, hanging out with my best friends until 2 in the morning.
Tonight I just sat around with Erica being depressed. Then just as soon as Tyler and Jesse come over and things start to get fun, I had to go home. Damn curfew. So now I'm here being all emo and listening to soft music. Gar at my friends for not having curfews.
I got home and wanted to cry so I put on Death Cab and went through old debate photos. One time the shutter speed on my camera got screwey and the delay got long enough that it blurred all my photos. They all came out really cool...sort of aphrodisiac like. Random lights with people that are all made of soft lines. It was strange, but it added a hue to the memories those picutres contain. They were taken when things were still good. We were still a family.
I have this obsession with family lately. I remember laughing to myself once when Catherine, Greg, Brooke, and I all went to see a movie in Chicago. I laughed because I imagined that we were the most random group of people ever. Two teenagers, a white girl and a Korean, the weird short guy with dark hair who's obviously incredibly nerdy, and the mother figure that was Brooke. We made such an odd family, but that's what it was for me. The three people I spent every weekend with, all my after school time with on weekdays, the people that shaped my life. That's all over now, though.
So I graduated to a new family. It began with Erica. From there it acquired Tyler, Leah, and Jesse. The five of us have become a family. We get mad at each other, love each other, and can't seem to get rid of one another, no matter how hard we seem to try. This one's going to end soon, with the end of the year. Tyler and Leah will be back on occasion, but without them it will be...shit.
I've decided that I want a big family when I grow up. I just want to always be able to surround myself with people, with family.
Last night Tyler drug us out to Garrison rock. You ask "Where's that?" I'll tell you. In the middle of the fucking woods. That's right. We trolloped through the woods, six of us, to see a big rock and possibly die. But everything was alright, and it was actually pretty fun. Even though Jesse and I were close to shitting our pants to begin with. It was a good time, hanging out with my best friends until 2 in the morning.
Tonight I just sat around with Erica being depressed. Then just as soon as Tyler and Jesse come over and things start to get fun, I had to go home. Damn curfew. So now I'm here being all emo and listening to soft music. Gar at my friends for not having curfews.
I got home and wanted to cry so I put on Death Cab and went through old debate photos. One time the shutter speed on my camera got screwey and the delay got long enough that it blurred all my photos. They all came out really cool...sort of aphrodisiac like. Random lights with people that are all made of soft lines. It was strange, but it added a hue to the memories those picutres contain. They were taken when things were still good. We were still a family.
I have this obsession with family lately. I remember laughing to myself once when Catherine, Greg, Brooke, and I all went to see a movie in Chicago. I laughed because I imagined that we were the most random group of people ever. Two teenagers, a white girl and a Korean, the weird short guy with dark hair who's obviously incredibly nerdy, and the mother figure that was Brooke. We made such an odd family, but that's what it was for me. The three people I spent every weekend with, all my after school time with on weekdays, the people that shaped my life. That's all over now, though.
So I graduated to a new family. It began with Erica. From there it acquired Tyler, Leah, and Jesse. The five of us have become a family. We get mad at each other, love each other, and can't seem to get rid of one another, no matter how hard we seem to try. This one's going to end soon, with the end of the year. Tyler and Leah will be back on occasion, but without them it will be...shit.
I've decided that I want a big family when I grow up. I just want to always be able to surround myself with people, with family.