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i am so depressed, yet so happy and satisfied with life at the same time
i don't get it
i mean, just the past few days have been the best days since i've been back. i had a wonderful weekend, and though it's only tuesday, a wonderful week thus far. even the hockey game (which we lost) was a good time. i got to see my friend sherry who i never see anymore. and me christian and daybid were being WETAWDS... oh that was fun. sherry was like wow and i thought me and my friends were weird... haha.. good times.
but anyway, i'm not really sure why i'm depressed. i think it's just because i've been reading comments that people have written about me on ljs that i've been looking at for the past hour out of utter boredom, and it just pisses me off how people can say such mean stuff about me and not even know who i am. i think i am a nice person. i care more about others than myself. that's how i get hurt. i guess people think that just because i look a certain way and because i act so melancholy all the time, that i am a bitch and i dont give a crap about anyone but myself. honest to god, i think it's because people judge me by my LOOKS, ie:she's blonde, acts dumb, so therefore she doesn't care about people and she doesn't have feelings. she's fake.
you know what i say to people like that? bah. more indifference for you... ok ok so that's a lie. how about hatred or something?
i don't get it
i mean, just the past few days have been the best days since i've been back. i had a wonderful weekend, and though it's only tuesday, a wonderful week thus far. even the hockey game (which we lost) was a good time. i got to see my friend sherry who i never see anymore. and me christian and daybid were being WETAWDS... oh that was fun. sherry was like wow and i thought me and my friends were weird... haha.. good times.
but anyway, i'm not really sure why i'm depressed. i think it's just because i've been reading comments that people have written about me on ljs that i've been looking at for the past hour out of utter boredom, and it just pisses me off how people can say such mean stuff about me and not even know who i am. i think i am a nice person. i care more about others than myself. that's how i get hurt. i guess people think that just because i look a certain way and because i act so melancholy all the time, that i am a bitch and i dont give a crap about anyone but myself. honest to god, i think it's because people judge me by my LOOKS, ie:she's blonde, acts dumb, so therefore she doesn't care about people and she doesn't have feelings. she's fake.
you know what i say to people like that? bah. more indifference for you... ok ok so that's a lie. how about hatred or something?