ugh.
so i have been planning this trip to europe and mark and i have been talking about how great it's going to be/going over the minute we see each other and what's going to happen repeatedly.
then he writes me today and is talking about how maybe i should cruise when his parents do so i won't ever have to be alone when he has rehearsals and shit. isn't that the worst idea ever? i like his parents but i don't even want to go on a cruise with my parents.
the actual problem here is that i've been kind of secretly freaking out about this whole thing, thinking how ridiculous i am for taking this trip/how ridiculous i am for dating someone who is going to be gone for 6 months.
and i am doing this because i am the biggest pussy wimp ever.
i would like to just enjoy myself and be happy with a boy that writes me love letters and puts up with my shit but i make it so difficult for myself.
i feel like anytime i like someone, it's always someone who comes with some type of huge obstacle.
first a republican, then a ghost.
i guess a republican is way worse but you get my point.
i am totally excited for the shows that moo and i are playing this weekend. i hope they are fun and people like us, i can't believe we are opening for the silent years. i love them.
then he writes me today and is talking about how maybe i should cruise when his parents do so i won't ever have to be alone when he has rehearsals and shit. isn't that the worst idea ever? i like his parents but i don't even want to go on a cruise with my parents.
the actual problem here is that i've been kind of secretly freaking out about this whole thing, thinking how ridiculous i am for taking this trip/how ridiculous i am for dating someone who is going to be gone for 6 months.
and i am doing this because i am the biggest pussy wimp ever.
i would like to just enjoy myself and be happy with a boy that writes me love letters and puts up with my shit but i make it so difficult for myself.
i feel like anytime i like someone, it's always someone who comes with some type of huge obstacle.
first a republican, then a ghost.
i guess a republican is way worse but you get my point.
i am totally excited for the shows that moo and i are playing this weekend. i hope they are fun and people like us, i can't believe we are opening for the silent years. i love them.