a friend and a prayer
i have a date with Alice tonight! yAy! i haven't seen her in awhile, and we have lots of plans to do music and listen to music and art and play with balaloons and all sorts of stuff. it will be a great night to follow up a great week. yes, despite the madd amounts of work and my body pains and chafing, it was a good week.
over the course of my 22+ years, i have given myself a lot to live up to in terms of expectations, goals, and "who to be". all in all, it was not a great gift. i am never going to be that person who does those things. i am who i am and i do waht i do right here, right now. i want to let go of all these personally unhelpful expecations and just be myself for awhile and see where that takes me. when someone tells me i am a great person, i want to just smile and nod and accept it and move on, without any worries about taking it egotistically or any sinking holes of insecurity appearing inside myself. i am in love with myself again and i want to recreate my life from this love.
Alice is always really helpful to talk to about things like this. i know i'm on my way up and out of Chapel Perilous.
over the course of my 22+ years, i have given myself a lot to live up to in terms of expectations, goals, and "who to be". all in all, it was not a great gift. i am never going to be that person who does those things. i am who i am and i do waht i do right here, right now. i want to let go of all these personally unhelpful expecations and just be myself for awhile and see where that takes me. when someone tells me i am a great person, i want to just smile and nod and accept it and move on, without any worries about taking it egotistically or any sinking holes of insecurity appearing inside myself. i am in love with myself again and i want to recreate my life from this love.
Alice is always really helpful to talk to about things like this. i know i'm on my way up and out of Chapel Perilous.