Slow Erosion

[negativeink]

the things you did
the things you said
the way you said them
amount to an image of you I can't quite get out of my head
manifesting themselves in a dream, yelling 'I hate you!'
it's hard to interpret that any other way.
and yet again we've made plans
short term plans
that make it impossible to make any big changes
without disrupting every other strata in our lives.
and the irony is it's the fact that you aren't making plans
for us
that led to all this
no long term plans, no future with 'us' in it
and thank fuck
you know?
do I really want this anyway?
do I really want to deal with your behaviour and your childishness
your addictions, your lack of initiative, your absence of soul?
I need to start making plans for me.