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I remember learning about accepting responsibility only in the past couple years of my life. It was after I had lost the person that had always meant the most to me, though I didn't know it at the time. She taught me that if something outside you is "acting on you," you have no control. Often though when we feel like there are forces outside ourselves conspiring against us, it is our shadow that is conspiring to keep us stuck, and ourselves that we have to battle with.
It is so much harder to look at your life, the things you are not happy with, and accept how many of the situations you directly created. But when you do, when you see yourself and your behaviors clearly, then you can choose differently. Accepting responsibility gives you the power to change things that often feel unchangeable. We make choices based on our interaction with the world and our families at a young age. So often it's hard to separate almost autonomic responses to situations, with outside forces acting on us.
So I have created the me that I am now.
I like some of me, and I don't like some of me. The part I like I am trying to grow, and the rest I am trying to identify so I can be kind to him too, make him some hot tea, give him a blanket, and then put him to bed.
I am thankful for so much in my life. I have so much beauty and love around me, creativity, support. What am I bitching about? I do have things to show for my work, and I am starting to have things to show for my emotional progress too. Today I am thankful.
I am thankful for my friends, for music, my ideas, my emotional growth, analog synths, smothered french fries, breasts, breakbeats, God, love, Germany, Japan, crickets, my intuition, drum machines, IM, my health, autumn, the ability to hear, to see, touch, feel, and to understand.
Thank you God for giving me the chance to experience this beautiful crazy place.
Today I am thankful.
It is so much harder to look at your life, the things you are not happy with, and accept how many of the situations you directly created. But when you do, when you see yourself and your behaviors clearly, then you can choose differently. Accepting responsibility gives you the power to change things that often feel unchangeable. We make choices based on our interaction with the world and our families at a young age. So often it's hard to separate almost autonomic responses to situations, with outside forces acting on us.
So I have created the me that I am now.
I like some of me, and I don't like some of me. The part I like I am trying to grow, and the rest I am trying to identify so I can be kind to him too, make him some hot tea, give him a blanket, and then put him to bed.
I am thankful for so much in my life. I have so much beauty and love around me, creativity, support. What am I bitching about? I do have things to show for my work, and I am starting to have things to show for my emotional progress too. Today I am thankful.
I am thankful for my friends, for music, my ideas, my emotional growth, analog synths, smothered french fries, breasts, breakbeats, God, love, Germany, Japan, crickets, my intuition, drum machines, IM, my health, autumn, the ability to hear, to see, touch, feel, and to understand.
Thank you God for giving me the chance to experience this beautiful crazy place.
Today I am thankful.