I'm losing it
For the first time in a long time I blew my top at work today. I had an audience too. Work screwed up my pay again and I felt my back break from the last straw. I ripped my check up and went to the back room to pummel the steel fire door a few times,many gaping mouths surrounded me,because I know from many that when I get mad it gets ugly. Lately I have lost all patience or tolerance,things I pride myself on having developed. It has worn so thin like those threads magicians use, you can't even see it even though you know it's there.I guess that there is only so much I can take. I didn't want to come back to the place where people fear me because of my volitile temper. A temper that tends to destroy things and people in my path. It was hard to overcome it before,hard to teach myself to be civilized. Now I feel I am back to square one, the reckless animal.