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Sometimes i think that people dont know the real me, but then things suprise me that i really dont expect. People pick up on the smallest details and learn about you while you dont realise there doing it. I really didnt know my mum knew about my secrets or withheld information should i say, and she doesnt, but she knows the ultimate ending of where the secrets end up.
The other day she came out with the statement
"I knew that you were just searching for what you wanted in a girl, and i knew that when you found that girl it would be full on, all or nothing. and im really happy with the choice in girl you made!"
"Shes really nice, pretty, you can tell shes clever and quick whitted by the way she responds and carrys herself"
I was personally unaware my mum was so observational, but i guess mums see everything lol!
I got to wondering, if u spend enough time with one person do they know you more that you know yourself.
I know little things about me, habits and things, but my thoughts are usually about other people, so if i pay more attention to other people than i pay to myself, doesnt that mean i will know more about them than i know about myself? perhaps it does. Id like to think i can know another person aswell as i know myself.
FILMS ON
ARE BETTER!!
Anyways, Im all alone tonight, with the exception of my mother but alone nevertheless, and ive enjoyed it! its like returning to the old days for one night only! Movies on channel 4, cant beat them in my eyes. Really doesnt matter if the film is good, bad or out right crap, still always end up watchin the whole film! And i always find that films are slightly enhanced by the fact that there on tv. Watching a dvd always makes me feel like im missing out on something, but when its on normal tv i get the feeling everyone else is watching it with me and in that sense im not alone, but have all the privacy and comfort i want.
I MISS YOU! <3
However i havent stopped thinking about karen all weekend, sure shes having loads of fun at download but i cant wait for her to come home so i can see her! This feeling of missing someone is rather strange for me as ive never really missed anyone before, i think one of the reasons is that we spend so much time together it feels wrong to be without her. But the main reason is that i dont like not being with her, and i know im in love with her. Been apart from her for 3days and 3 nights and its far to long, i dont know what ill do when she ends up going to university, i know she will go because she wants to, and shes very clever so she will make it easily. Just gotta prepare myself for it :S