Not Falling
It's hard to keep telling myself it's only been a week and a handful of days.
I had a dream last night and she was in it; there was a wedding going on, and She knew the groom, and I suppose then I knew the bride. Everyone at the wedding planning meetings and the hotel we were all in was trying to convince me to get back together with her. I spoke with her about how uncomfortable I was, and then I noticed she didn't even look like herself. She looked like a celebrity (no reason to clarify)... I suppose I felt tricked somehow, and the dream tapered off then.
Something about it all irked me, and maybe it's just me trying to clarify what I still had on my mind, still more or less blaming myself over the breakup. I need to let go, is what needs to happen.
Other than that, I've still been trying to get some work done on MoonPhase, MMG and DAS comic/art work, but it's hard to stay motivated during the holidays. It's worse when I work so late and come home feeling mentally exhausted, and physically restless.
Trakal and I played Red Dead Redemption last night, and really other than my roommates, it's the first time I've done any actual gaming with friends, and it was pretty fun/ny. For the first time in days I stopped worrying so much about everything in life. The only reason I play games is to escape. It's hardly any different from reading a good book.
I still have a lot of sifting to do in my life, I need to rework my budget and schedule pretty significantly- and I'm hoping it won't be too difficult to do so in the midst of the holiday season.
Do you ever get the feeling you're missing some key aspect in life? Like it's just the one idea that hasn't struck you yet that's keeping you in your day-to-day, week-to-week struggle?
Because I can't seem to shake that feeling.
I had a dream last night and she was in it; there was a wedding going on, and She knew the groom, and I suppose then I knew the bride. Everyone at the wedding planning meetings and the hotel we were all in was trying to convince me to get back together with her. I spoke with her about how uncomfortable I was, and then I noticed she didn't even look like herself. She looked like a celebrity (no reason to clarify)... I suppose I felt tricked somehow, and the dream tapered off then.
Something about it all irked me, and maybe it's just me trying to clarify what I still had on my mind, still more or less blaming myself over the breakup. I need to let go, is what needs to happen.
Other than that, I've still been trying to get some work done on MoonPhase, MMG and DAS comic/art work, but it's hard to stay motivated during the holidays. It's worse when I work so late and come home feeling mentally exhausted, and physically restless.
Trakal and I played Red Dead Redemption last night, and really other than my roommates, it's the first time I've done any actual gaming with friends, and it was pretty fun/ny. For the first time in days I stopped worrying so much about everything in life. The only reason I play games is to escape. It's hardly any different from reading a good book.
I still have a lot of sifting to do in my life, I need to rework my budget and schedule pretty significantly- and I'm hoping it won't be too difficult to do so in the midst of the holiday season.
Do you ever get the feeling you're missing some key aspect in life? Like it's just the one idea that hasn't struck you yet that's keeping you in your day-to-day, week-to-week struggle?
Because I can't seem to shake that feeling.