not sure what to think right now!!!

[nefferchica]

Right now i have so many things going thro my head at once that if thoughts could kill i would have been dead a long time ago!!!!!! im in love with a boy that just wants to be "friends"! i broke up with a very nice and sweet boy just so the boy i love would take notice again! which im starting to think that it was a big mistake!!! then with school and trying to mantain a's and b's while twirling and doing cheerleading!! its all really starting to come back and bit me in the ass!!! then my friends "erick" trying to help me but me being the bitch i am not listening to what he says and now regreting it!!!

but i just dont know what to do or say!! im just so confused that im not sure what to do anymore!!!!!!
Neffers!!