I'm So Excited, I'm So Scared!
I actually said that this morning! Outloud! Without even thinking! haha Anyhow, the above statement was said in response to my getting a call from one of the Johns at bizSanDiego, letting me know that I got the internship I interviewed for last week. I totally did not expect to get it after I didn't hear back from them by the time they said I should. But lo and behold, at 9:45 this morning my phone rang with the good news. I really am so excited! And also, a little scared. Mainly because its a new step in my life; its a new job (which I haven't had in three years!) and its actually something I really want to do with my life. What if I come to find that I am not as good at what I plan on doing for the rest of my life as I think? I fancy myself an alright writer and corrector of spelling/grammar, but what if? Eh, I think I will be alright...but there is always a little "what if" involved in every new endeavor; otherwise, people would just be new endeavoring all over the place, right? Right. I am breaking out of the mold of my current life and starting a very new one. There is a lot of change taking place next week: my first quarter at UCSD, a new job/internship, healthier eating...and I am sure more will follow. Change tends to happen in lumps in my life. I still have an interview with another internship tomorrow: a paid internship. The company itself, I must admit, is less appealing than working for a magazine, but the fact that it is paid is definitely more appealing that not getting paid. Oh, dilemmas. In the interview with bizSanDiego, they mentioned that I would probably only be in about once a week since their office is small, and they wouldn't really have anywhere to "put" me. This is actually a good thing, since I would still need to keep my job at Kreiss. Gotta make those ends. With the internship I am interviewing for tomorrow, I believe I would need to quit working at Kreiss as they want someone in their office at least 15 hours a week. I guess in the end, its all going to come down to how much the paid internship wants to shell out. If its not much, then its a no go. If its a decent wage, then, well...we'll see. Its also in Carlsbad, so gas is a factor, too. This is all even assuming that I have a choice; I have no job offer from tomorrow's interview at this point, so it may not even come into play in the long run. But I suppose its not a bad idea to weigh the options early...