Sunday a beautiful day for a guiltrip.
I know me leaving is hard on ppl, but its somethign I need to do, and want to do. I know I'm going to have a vulnerable time transitioning from not being attatched to the hip of Mother dearest, or Papa Bear, but sooner or lata you need to set that mustang ree (got that idea from Hidalgo at the end....sorry if I ruined the movie for you) Anyway after church, Brother Wade cornered me and asked me...so next wek is your last weeek..I'm like yeah. He's like so leaving nursery, and I'm like yeah. Its like I feel like Im stabbing someone or hurting a wounded animal..i cant just stay and deminish my growth potential because its uncomfortable to do so. Jess G is leavign one week after me. I told her If I bump into her that we should plan somehting. She's going to school in Idaho, and I live like...or will live like 10 min away. So I know we wont lose touch, there is always mail. She and her mom came up to me and asked me "Are you eating Shaana?" Mom said she wanted to deck sister Godfrey, that comment did kinda throw me off, but I have been eatin gmore, but my appetite keeps diminishing, if I eat half a plate I feel like I jsut overate on Thanksgiving. Anyway they commented on for the past month you look like you lost tremendous ammount of weight, each tim I see you. Jess is like how do you do it...
I dont know what to say ...today I had a meal replacement drink...so I wouldn have to eat an an english muffin with Jam...for dinner I had 2 cups of vegtable soup....Oh and A Mango. So yeah I'm eating.
I'm packing and planning, Im making my last week count, I want to be able to fit in as much as possible for th eones I love, I finished making 4 pages in my scrapbook of church friends, school friends, and just friends. So yeah I want to carry there memory of them forever, and a picture is worth a thousand words.
Tim came with Alli at church this sunday, he brought in my taiwany stamp, and pic of Vanessa...an exchange student that I was friends with...still am technically.
I cant wait to start a new life, I htink with new ppl i can have a fresh page, learn from my past mistakes and do things better....like not trusting ppl to much not taking one moment for granted..thatkinda jazz.
Luv n Peace for now
I dont know what to say ...today I had a meal replacement drink...so I wouldn have to eat an an english muffin with Jam...for dinner I had 2 cups of vegtable soup....Oh and A Mango. So yeah I'm eating.
I'm packing and planning, Im making my last week count, I want to be able to fit in as much as possible for th eones I love, I finished making 4 pages in my scrapbook of church friends, school friends, and just friends. So yeah I want to carry there memory of them forever, and a picture is worth a thousand words.
Tim came with Alli at church this sunday, he brought in my taiwany stamp, and pic of Vanessa...an exchange student that I was friends with...still am technically.
I cant wait to start a new life, I htink with new ppl i can have a fresh page, learn from my past mistakes and do things better....like not trusting ppl to much not taking one moment for granted..thatkinda jazz.
Luv n Peace for now