how to kill a puppy dog
last night i had the most bizzare fight w/ eli. i guess the "maybe we coudl be together again soemday when we've both worked out our shit' somehow turned into 'we're back togetheras of who know's when without actually sayng anything about beign back together' cuz yeah, well, here's the fight
scene; my front hall, we're both pissed
e "why don't you care about me?'
m "i do care about you"
e "if you cared about me, you'd come after me when i left"
m "you stormed off about the damn dog licking you. taht's not a mood i wanna chase you in"
e "you should follow me everywhere. if you cared about me you'd follow me everywhere"
m "what? like a puppy dog? i'm not your puppy dog!"
e "why not? i follow you everywhere?"
m "because it's just not me to cling to people like that. and you're dam nannoying when you cling to me so fiercly."
e "see, you don't care about me! (begins to cry)"
m (walks over to give him a hug) "it;s okay, i do care about you"
e "how am i supposta tel lif you don't follow me?"
m "you're suppost to trust me"
e "i can't trust you. i do not trust you."
m "what? well, why not? if you can't trust me than..."
e "just show me that you care!"
m (startign to shake and see spiders running around our feet) "just go home, jsut go away, i need to take my meds now..."
e "stop shaking!" (tries to hold my legs down)
m "leave me alone! i can't stop shaking!"
e "yes you can! stop shaking! i said stop shaking!"
m "go home! goodnight! goodbye!"
e "not until we have a nice goodbye" (nice goodbye attempted, me still shaking"
"that was not a nice goodbye!"
m "look, i'm trying my best here but i'm gonna loose it in a second so just go" (inisits on kissing me, giving my multiple hugs, prolonging stay as long as possible as some form of torture)
m"you odn't understand this, do you?"
(looks blankly, leaves)
our friendship relationship has had none of this abuse, but if it's turned to this, i never want to see him again. this is jsut ridiculous.
scene; my front hall, we're both pissed
e "why don't you care about me?'
m "i do care about you"
e "if you cared about me, you'd come after me when i left"
m "you stormed off about the damn dog licking you. taht's not a mood i wanna chase you in"
e "you should follow me everywhere. if you cared about me you'd follow me everywhere"
m "what? like a puppy dog? i'm not your puppy dog!"
e "why not? i follow you everywhere?"
m "because it's just not me to cling to people like that. and you're dam nannoying when you cling to me so fiercly."
e "see, you don't care about me! (begins to cry)"
m (walks over to give him a hug) "it;s okay, i do care about you"
e "how am i supposta tel lif you don't follow me?"
m "you're suppost to trust me"
e "i can't trust you. i do not trust you."
m "what? well, why not? if you can't trust me than..."
e "just show me that you care!"
m (startign to shake and see spiders running around our feet) "just go home, jsut go away, i need to take my meds now..."
e "stop shaking!" (tries to hold my legs down)
m "leave me alone! i can't stop shaking!"
e "yes you can! stop shaking! i said stop shaking!"
m "go home! goodnight! goodbye!"
e "not until we have a nice goodbye" (nice goodbye attempted, me still shaking"
"that was not a nice goodbye!"
m "look, i'm trying my best here but i'm gonna loose it in a second so just go" (inisits on kissing me, giving my multiple hugs, prolonging stay as long as possible as some form of torture)
m"you odn't understand this, do you?"
(looks blankly, leaves)
our friendship relationship has had none of this abuse, but if it's turned to this, i never want to see him again. this is jsut ridiculous.