The anger got the best of me...and my wall
Lots of stuff to discuss
My sister got hooked on heroin... oh happy day, so off I went.. to fucking everyone is dumb as shit ohio. It was aweful there. My sister cursed me out alot during her big detox and blamed me for things that I had already blamed myself for in my head. oh jeez... After it was all out in the toilet mostly, she started being a little more civil. She took us to a place she use to live at which broke me a little on the inside because it was a halfway house pretty much. I dont understand how things happen so fast, usually heading toward the southern region... you never hear of anyone saying "I don't know how it happened, its like i woke up and I was the richest man in the world, or enlightened, or anything good for that matter..." She has no ambition to rise out of the water and I can't afford to drowned so I had to leave. I keep checking up on her but thats all I'm capable of at the present time. Yesterday I was depressed today im fine with it..tomorrow...its up in the air really..
Today was my first day back to work in a week. A supervisor decided to belittle me which angered me so much I came home and threw a water bottle against my wall which then inherited a hole the size of walnut. Who knew all that fetch playing with lelu would give me such a strong arm.. I can't believe I let that son of a bitch get to me like that but man do I hate authority figures who abuse thier abilities to play god for the 8 hour work day. I'm not sure how I will handle myself tomorrow. I want to approach him about the situation for sure but I will probably ignore him instead because once the adrenaline is gone I'm a coward. it wasent just him that influenced me to penatrate my wall...my sister had a place in my hand as well.
I joined a soft ball team... this is very unlike me being that i NEVER did sports in any of my school career but I needed a change and maybe a new friend, we'll see.
I'm in a lonely spot right now. Lonely spots are usually the size of an olympic pool, its really hard to reach the other side....oh me and my silly analogies. I cut all my hair off... rules of attraction, shannon sossamon style. i like it. I can't wait to move to maryland..
My first job was in hummelstown, remember when I worked at wendy's... god it seems SO SO long ago.
<3<3
My sister got hooked on heroin... oh happy day, so off I went.. to fucking everyone is dumb as shit ohio. It was aweful there. My sister cursed me out alot during her big detox and blamed me for things that I had already blamed myself for in my head. oh jeez... After it was all out in the toilet mostly, she started being a little more civil. She took us to a place she use to live at which broke me a little on the inside because it was a halfway house pretty much. I dont understand how things happen so fast, usually heading toward the southern region... you never hear of anyone saying "I don't know how it happened, its like i woke up and I was the richest man in the world, or enlightened, or anything good for that matter..." She has no ambition to rise out of the water and I can't afford to drowned so I had to leave. I keep checking up on her but thats all I'm capable of at the present time. Yesterday I was depressed today im fine with it..tomorrow...its up in the air really..
Today was my first day back to work in a week. A supervisor decided to belittle me which angered me so much I came home and threw a water bottle against my wall which then inherited a hole the size of walnut. Who knew all that fetch playing with lelu would give me such a strong arm.. I can't believe I let that son of a bitch get to me like that but man do I hate authority figures who abuse thier abilities to play god for the 8 hour work day. I'm not sure how I will handle myself tomorrow. I want to approach him about the situation for sure but I will probably ignore him instead because once the adrenaline is gone I'm a coward. it wasent just him that influenced me to penatrate my wall...my sister had a place in my hand as well.
I joined a soft ball team... this is very unlike me being that i NEVER did sports in any of my school career but I needed a change and maybe a new friend, we'll see.
I'm in a lonely spot right now. Lonely spots are usually the size of an olympic pool, its really hard to reach the other side....oh me and my silly analogies. I cut all my hair off... rules of attraction, shannon sossamon style. i like it. I can't wait to move to maryland..
My first job was in hummelstown, remember when I worked at wendy's... god it seems SO SO long ago.
<3<3