im going hunting***
Lately I have maintained so much high energy at work I hardly know whats wrong with me. I don't stop, my job is very physically demanding. Usually half way through the day I want to throw in the towel and go home.. For the last 3 weeks I guess I have been like a machine. My body is getting really tone and maybe thats my motivation. To get more toned, so keep working... employee of the year just because I wanted to work out. I have been jogging, doing yoga, and eating healthier. This may contribute to my increased energy OR MAYBE it's because I hardly smoke cigarettes now. I swear the universe made me terribly sick on purpose just so I would change because ever since then my smoking habits just havent been the same. It's for the best but at the same time, a part of me is missing... I've switched to peanuts... I am positively addicted to peanuts...smoked almonds...jesus, mary and joseph...along with all the decipals ofcourse.. couldn't POSSIBLY forget the decipals. fuck an a I'm retarded...
I am so close to getting my car it's crazy.. I found the perfect one today but I probably won't get it.. it's close, and with a car comes a little more independence from Andrew. As much as I love him, I need some time. I need to hang out with people without him there, I just need some kind of life without him. I get to feeling cramped sometimes, being that we live together, work together.. I think it's all very understandable. When I do get this vehicle of mine, you miss, better hang out with me... I am so much better at hanging out then talking on the phone, I promise..
This boy likes me at work.. he always gives me oogly eyes and sometimes they twitch funny and I don't know.. I never understand what people see when they look at me.. I wish I could read their minds to get some insite.
Anyway,
Once apon a time there was this baby banana. It was so vibrant green and it's skin was thick and strong like armor. It felt safe inside and all day long it would sleep and dream about all the wonderful things it would do when it was brave enough to come out of it's peel. Through time the banana's skin changed and everything became brighter inside it's womb like skin and the banana just knew that it was almost time for it to move up and out. The problem was, the banana was not only scared of moving on but comfortable. It wanted more but just couldn't get the nerve to make the change, to come out, and live out all of it's wildest dreams. Soon it got dim, and what was then a womb now became a cage that the banana just couldn't excape because it's body was beginning to turn to mush. The poor fruit watched as everything got darker and darker. The armor no longer was able to keep the banana safe. It started to cry and as it did so the banana's body turned to liquid. The last thought in the banana's head right before the last bit of it's mass liqified was that it should have made the change when it had the chance. The banana's dreams of walking to the edge of the world faded away and all that was left was a smelly puddle of banana juice.
The End
Think of this the next time you let a banana go to waste.
I am so close to getting my car it's crazy.. I found the perfect one today but I probably won't get it.. it's close, and with a car comes a little more independence from Andrew. As much as I love him, I need some time. I need to hang out with people without him there, I just need some kind of life without him. I get to feeling cramped sometimes, being that we live together, work together.. I think it's all very understandable. When I do get this vehicle of mine, you miss, better hang out with me... I am so much better at hanging out then talking on the phone, I promise..
This boy likes me at work.. he always gives me oogly eyes and sometimes they twitch funny and I don't know.. I never understand what people see when they look at me.. I wish I could read their minds to get some insite.
Anyway,
Once apon a time there was this baby banana. It was so vibrant green and it's skin was thick and strong like armor. It felt safe inside and all day long it would sleep and dream about all the wonderful things it would do when it was brave enough to come out of it's peel. Through time the banana's skin changed and everything became brighter inside it's womb like skin and the banana just knew that it was almost time for it to move up and out. The problem was, the banana was not only scared of moving on but comfortable. It wanted more but just couldn't get the nerve to make the change, to come out, and live out all of it's wildest dreams. Soon it got dim, and what was then a womb now became a cage that the banana just couldn't excape because it's body was beginning to turn to mush. The poor fruit watched as everything got darker and darker. The armor no longer was able to keep the banana safe. It started to cry and as it did so the banana's body turned to liquid. The last thought in the banana's head right before the last bit of it's mass liqified was that it should have made the change when it had the chance. The banana's dreams of walking to the edge of the world faded away and all that was left was a smelly puddle of banana juice.
The End
Think of this the next time you let a banana go to waste.