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Nov 14, 2005 01:14

Dear Readers....

I try to fall asleep to the songs on my IPOD but thoughts constantly fill my mind, breaking my heart even more. I cant bear to focus on school or my life for that matter, because deep down theres just something wrong (at least i think so). I dont mean to be dramatic or like depressed, but I think my heart hurts. At nineteen, my heart hurts. And not in the physical state, but the emotional and mental aspect. And i cant think of why. Im so confused...but I know it hurts...for why would I be listening to songs with tears falling down my face.

I wish I had a crystal ball to see what the outcome of my life will be : to see if I will be satisfied or should I just quit my journey before it starts?! Am I destined to be lonely forever? Will I make it as a doctor? Will my sophomore year in college be the worst year of my life?

"Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just began to fall
Crop circles in the carpet
Sinking, feeling
Spin me around again
And rub my eyes
This can't be happening"
---------Imogen Heap "Hide and Seek"

"Oh why'd you have to be so cute
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

One of these days
You'll miss your train, and come stay with me
It's always say goodnight and go
We'll have drinks and talk about things
And any excuse to stay awake with you
You'd sleep here, I'd sleep there
But then the heating may be down again
At my convenience
We'd be good, we'd be great together
Go"
------------Imogen Heap "Goodnight and Go"

im so sad. and now i feel nauseous.......boo. im going to bed. in silence.
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