Oct 31, 2005 10:40
Okay. so this weekend was the Florida-Georgia game in Jacksonville and guess what?! we actually WON!!!!!! 14-10 yo. so amazing. i was actually at the game which was super cool, not going to lie. lol. although our seats were like the very top row on the higher side. like you COULD NOT go any higher at all! it was def fun though. kallay and i went cuz frances and dana decided to sell their tickets for $110 a peice....lol. money money money
I have decided that in an effort to better my life, im going to study and work hard for my profession not to become rich and make a lot of money, but in order to help people. I feel like im going into my profession for the wrong reason, and that just cant be right. Maybe thats why God is making me do poorly and allowing me to become depressed, because He knows that im only wanting to become a doctor in order to get lots of money in the long run and spend it all on frivolous natures of materialistic items. I am such a shallow person. Kirsten called me a spoiled spoiled brat because my dad is actually going to buy me my Chanel sunglasses cuz he wants me to do well in school and be happy and he will do whatever it takes. lol. I love my family so much.
Although i still get compared to Sara alot and have mucho amounts of stress put upon me at all times, i really have to overlook it and be like "ya know what? i get whatever i want. i better not embarass my parents and do what they want me 2 do in order to give the same kind of life to my kids that they gave me."
Talking about children it leads me to my non existent love life....so guess who now has a girlfriend? im so depressed over that. not that he didnt want me as his gf, but because hes been here since like the end of august and ive been here for 1.5 years and i still havent had a college relation ship. i guess its not the same cuz hes going to comm college where thats like highschool but still. the girl is so not more prettier than me and i think that im waay better like classy-wise, etc. its just really disappointing because i had spent 30$ on him to accompany me to the date function like an exact month ago and like 2 days later he has like someone hes dating. and then he forgets to call me or say anything to me on my birthday. its just really hard being pushed away like that. i dont know. im just too sensitive when it comes to ppl that im around not like treating me the way that i treat them. i truly only get in my bitchy attitude with him when he starts saying stuff to me like offensively....i have to defend myself, right? whatever. i guess its all in the past. he doesnt even talk to me anymore, after our little fight over him not remembering my bday was coming up on October 18th. so sad. almost going to be a month of no speaking. i hate when ppl dont want me to be their friend, i feel like im truly a replaceable person. :( sadness i hope he reads this paragraph and understands that im very disappointed in my importance to him. after knowing him for like 4 years, i thought things would change.
So at the Landing in JAX one of the Beta Theta Pi's here at THE UNIVERSITY OF FLORIDA was MURDERED. he got beaten to death by 5 guys. sooo sad. R.I.P. Tom Brown. i never knew you but i hope that you rest in peace and continue your afterlife. i hate when people die so young and arent able to experience life. so depressing.
all i have to say is THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME THIS WONDERFUL LIFE WITH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO CARE DEEPLY ABOUT ME and allowing me 2 return safely yesterday. forgive me for my shallowness, materialisticness and carelessness with my academics and money.