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I binge/purged again! I really need tratment. It all started with a little restrictig earlier on in the day. I skipped 2 starches or something, and I ended up fucking up entirely. I'm trying to figure out why I did what I did. Ok lets see....
(1) I looooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeee food
(2) throwing up is cathartic, and nothing else can compare
(3) the whole process is very violent....I like violence I guess
(4) Maya and Prakash used the word I hate soooo much today when they were talking about my ed...."control"
(5) I feel like I'm getting away with something when I act out
(6) It's my little secret
(7) food satisfies my emotional hunger
(8) eating stuffs my feelings down, throwing up purges them up
(9) I enjoy the rituals that go with it all
...that's about it for now.
(1) I looooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeee food
(2) throwing up is cathartic, and nothing else can compare
(3) the whole process is very violent....I like violence I guess
(4) Maya and Prakash used the word I hate soooo much today when they were talking about my ed...."control"
(5) I feel like I'm getting away with something when I act out
(6) It's my little secret
(7) food satisfies my emotional hunger
(8) eating stuffs my feelings down, throwing up purges them up
(9) I enjoy the rituals that go with it all
...that's about it for now.