Fly me to the moon and back, and bring some cheese along for the ride.
It seems I never really project the way my life will happen and the way it does. I always fathom that one day, I will sort of chill and stop searching for whatever it is in searching for in this area of my life and move on. Get new friends in new places, meet some wonderful girl and discover some new place and feeling. If life is all in what you make it, I need to start making mine more of what I want it to be. Change is really hard for me though, and I find myself getting stuck in these ruts in my life, going back to my old roots and sort of "re-living yesturday". I have seen those who have gone before me, and those still behind me, and it really is all one big game of transition.
I feel like so much of my life and experiences I try and share with people, and some people give me the strangest impressions and reactions. We are all so individual and unique in our lives and experiences, and I really like to try and impress upon my friends from time to time how happy I am or just new thoughts. And I think what really sucks is when you try to explain to someone a question or thought or idea you read, and they sort of say to you "thats interesting" and just stop the conversation at a point of, well that is good for you but not for me mentality. So much of my discoveries and knowledge is so new and fresh that it really holds no judgementality with it, and Im not trying to prove to you that I have some extensive background in this subject, but more of I think this is interesting, is there anything you can teach me about this from your point of view? Cause isnt that the entire point of communication? to learn and see through the eyes of someone else into the views and ideas you yourself might not have seen or thoguht of. And to grow and learn off of each other, expressing views and arguments not in a non hostel way for mutual knowledge and fun. All the people I tend to grow apart from and very distant are people that to me really lack the ability to grow and communicate with me or teach me new things. You dont have to be a genious to teach someone something new, you just have to be open enough to speak your mind and create words and sentences. It is only when we have admitted that we are stupid that we can learn and really grow. Without self admittence and social acceptance of your own understanding of a topic of idea you will never grow or understand anything.
I find that so much of my life is spent on such almost, trivial things and useless day to day activities. Accompishments dont seem to come too often, and I dont really see any fault or dissapointement in this, but more of just realization and being able to appreciate the little things I do do. Its really hard in my mind to have a bad day. Even if you have what seems to be a horendous day at work, you can always turn that day into a story, and fun experience, a rediculous situation and relate that to others unimaginable days. I would rather work all day and hang out with people discussing my quirky co workers or strange scenarios than sleep and not accomplish anything.
I feel like so much of my life and experiences I try and share with people, and some people give me the strangest impressions and reactions. We are all so individual and unique in our lives and experiences, and I really like to try and impress upon my friends from time to time how happy I am or just new thoughts. And I think what really sucks is when you try to explain to someone a question or thought or idea you read, and they sort of say to you "thats interesting" and just stop the conversation at a point of, well that is good for you but not for me mentality. So much of my discoveries and knowledge is so new and fresh that it really holds no judgementality with it, and Im not trying to prove to you that I have some extensive background in this subject, but more of I think this is interesting, is there anything you can teach me about this from your point of view? Cause isnt that the entire point of communication? to learn and see through the eyes of someone else into the views and ideas you yourself might not have seen or thoguht of. And to grow and learn off of each other, expressing views and arguments not in a non hostel way for mutual knowledge and fun. All the people I tend to grow apart from and very distant are people that to me really lack the ability to grow and communicate with me or teach me new things. You dont have to be a genious to teach someone something new, you just have to be open enough to speak your mind and create words and sentences. It is only when we have admitted that we are stupid that we can learn and really grow. Without self admittence and social acceptance of your own understanding of a topic of idea you will never grow or understand anything.
I find that so much of my life is spent on such almost, trivial things and useless day to day activities. Accompishments dont seem to come too often, and I dont really see any fault or dissapointement in this, but more of just realization and being able to appreciate the little things I do do. Its really hard in my mind to have a bad day. Even if you have what seems to be a horendous day at work, you can always turn that day into a story, and fun experience, a rediculous situation and relate that to others unimaginable days. I would rather work all day and hang out with people discussing my quirky co workers or strange scenarios than sleep and not accomplish anything.