I am my parents
Last night while jumping over a fence I realized I am exactly like my parents. It seems a few things I once thought impossible to be true about my parents have been told to me, and I just sort of came to this horribly terrifying truth that I am just playing out a life and their life was just as intense, dangerous, breaking and enteringing as mine. If this is true, two things, one of shock and almost dis believe, and another of wondering why they wouldnt try and express more of their adventure stories to me, unless they fear it could push me to some level they dont want, but really, Ill get to all levels on my own in the end. Sort of tangent to this was I was realizing how, when you meet a new friend, you can't tell that new friend your whole life, every story, and if you try there is a good change you won't have a new friend any more. You can only hope to relate on common topics and relevant instances in a days play and throw in some background to how you go there, but overall, the moment is what creates the friendship and long lasting times. So, to have a kid, a new young person to talk to, teach, relate to, and influence, to try and tell them your life story would be to bore them and would just be impossible. Maybe this is why old people have all these old crazy stories, cause they either dont tell them for years and they get slowly twisted with memory, or they are all true but pieced together from several different instances of their life.
Another thing that was on my mind last night was about sleep, and how people say they try and catch up with sleep, but that some how that isnt possible to say, sleep one night 6hrs and then 12 the next, that the sleep can and will not replace lost sleep. So, if our whole lives, we are struggling to make up for lost sleep hours, but there is no way to make them up, that by the time you get to be 80-90, you have accumulated so much time your body needs to sleep that when you die, you really just go into the deepest sleep possible cause you are too tired to try and keep making up hours.
Another thing that was on my mind last night was about sleep, and how people say they try and catch up with sleep, but that some how that isnt possible to say, sleep one night 6hrs and then 12 the next, that the sleep can and will not replace lost sleep. So, if our whole lives, we are struggling to make up for lost sleep hours, but there is no way to make them up, that by the time you get to be 80-90, you have accumulated so much time your body needs to sleep that when you die, you really just go into the deepest sleep possible cause you are too tired to try and keep making up hours.