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I feel so old and so young at the same time. I find myself becoming more disconnected from my day to day activities, school and work seem to flow into one giant symphony of glory and I just float along thinking about the clouds.
Its strange to think back to a year ago and how far I feel I have come and how much I have changed. I dont feel depressed ever, just inquisitive and estranged. I dont know where to go from here. I know school will continue, but I dont know where my life will lead... all that matters will rise to a pin head and else will sink.
I had a dream today that I was sitting in a giant barca lounger and had a sleeping bag rolled up in my lap with my arms tucked inside. I slowly leaned back, falling asleep in complete comfort. The deeper the sleep got the farther back the chair leaned, till the whole chair, spread out, crashes backwards with my feet standing straight into the air and my head on the ground. So tired and unable to open my eyes, I lean back up, only to make the chair do a complete flip and I stand all the way up and then fall face first with the chair stretched out atop of me. The fall doesnt hurt me, but I lay there trapped, unable to open my eyes and unknowing of which direction is up. I try to push myself up, lifting the chair off with my back, but fall to the side, realizing the direction I just tried is definitely not up.
Its strange to think back to a year ago and how far I feel I have come and how much I have changed. I dont feel depressed ever, just inquisitive and estranged. I dont know where to go from here. I know school will continue, but I dont know where my life will lead... all that matters will rise to a pin head and else will sink.
I had a dream today that I was sitting in a giant barca lounger and had a sleeping bag rolled up in my lap with my arms tucked inside. I slowly leaned back, falling asleep in complete comfort. The deeper the sleep got the farther back the chair leaned, till the whole chair, spread out, crashes backwards with my feet standing straight into the air and my head on the ground. So tired and unable to open my eyes, I lean back up, only to make the chair do a complete flip and I stand all the way up and then fall face first with the chair stretched out atop of me. The fall doesnt hurt me, but I lay there trapped, unable to open my eyes and unknowing of which direction is up. I try to push myself up, lifting the chair off with my back, but fall to the side, realizing the direction I just tried is definitely not up.