Why I Have no religious ties in my life... sort of came to me and i had to write it down
Everytime I think of christ, or Jesus, or christians church the bible the old testiment! its like everything about religion seems so old to me. It all happened so long ago, hundreds even thousands of yrs ago. So I guess in my mind I think that how can something so ancient still be correct? or not correct...
I need more adjectives. I have studied the bible, was raised christian, and know lots about faith in general. But I have never really felt strongly about my faith. Ive never thought, "I feel the lord working in my life". I always thought that people who believed in christ were living in the past, afraid to realize the truth, and step into the now instead of the old. But faith isn't some old idea. To many
people it is constantly new, cutting edge. It is their everything. And I think I have this very strong tie because I always associated it with the old people at church or the Land and Sea meetings my parents took me too becuase everyone there was at least 60 or 80 and almost afraid of technology and the relative TODAY.
This also has to do with how my parents subjegated me to the black hillicoptor videos of how christians were the last perfect souls on earth and the world was ending tomorrow. Believeing the government, or the powers that be, are out there rounding people up for the big end of the world tomorrow, and that the anti christ will return at any minute and rain down hell on the christians, it's insain. It is to
fear the world. It is to fear the future. to destroy all dreams apart from heaven itself, but then you have to also remember, that to go to this extreme, you also had to believe that if you didnt repent for all your sins everyday that the world could end while you are sleeping and your soul will be damned to hell forever! SO with all this togther, my faith being weak, my beliefs of heaven minimal, nothing
more then a "thank you its not hell". I was living in in fear of the future, fear of the present, with a religion created over a thousand yrs ago, to help me live now.
I need more adjectives. I have studied the bible, was raised christian, and know lots about faith in general. But I have never really felt strongly about my faith. Ive never thought, "I feel the lord working in my life". I always thought that people who believed in christ were living in the past, afraid to realize the truth, and step into the now instead of the old. But faith isn't some old idea. To many
people it is constantly new, cutting edge. It is their everything. And I think I have this very strong tie because I always associated it with the old people at church or the Land and Sea meetings my parents took me too becuase everyone there was at least 60 or 80 and almost afraid of technology and the relative TODAY.
This also has to do with how my parents subjegated me to the black hillicoptor videos of how christians were the last perfect souls on earth and the world was ending tomorrow. Believeing the government, or the powers that be, are out there rounding people up for the big end of the world tomorrow, and that the anti christ will return at any minute and rain down hell on the christians, it's insain. It is to
fear the world. It is to fear the future. to destroy all dreams apart from heaven itself, but then you have to also remember, that to go to this extreme, you also had to believe that if you didnt repent for all your sins everyday that the world could end while you are sleeping and your soul will be damned to hell forever! SO with all this togther, my faith being weak, my beliefs of heaven minimal, nothing
more then a "thank you its not hell". I was living in in fear of the future, fear of the present, with a religion created over a thousand yrs ago, to help me live now.