today

[neenjastyle]

so today was about as eventful as most days will ever be here in the land of jon. swam at the pool some, did chores around the house, and, you guessed it , played computer games. i'm sorry that i can't be as cool as everyone else, but like i've said before, i'm happy with who i am. if people think i'm a dork or a loser, cool beans, kudos to you. i dont descriminate, i congratulate! so good job on being "cool" you guys. anyways, went over to laurens tonite and forgot the athf dvd's, well that's cole's fault. then drove another million miles to pick up her friend kate, who, for a lack of better terms....is attractive. yeah, i'll leave it at that. no sense in making an ass of myself =) more than i already do, anyways. yeah so we pick her up and my car sucks major nuts, then we go back to lauren's and hang out and watch SPIDER MAN CARTOONS for like an hour and cole and lauren have a huge pistachio fight. then cole finally cleans his mess up around 1 something then we go outside, talk for a bit, and leave. now i'm here, again, with nothing to do except think. i've come to a conclusion about most everything that's been bothering me. this applies to it all ...i wrote all this down here before any of what i actually did today, then found it to be a bit short, so i figured i'd "put some meat to it" or something, enjoy :)

i'm almost done figuring myself out. now all i have to do is worry about is what to do to stop being so confused. maybe if everyone was just straight up with me instead of hinting around at everything, then it'd make more sense to me. whatever, i'm tired of it all. i drew the line, and i'm not gonna cross it. you're gonna have to come to this side if you want anything from me.