Whatever happened to creativity?
I want to do so many things. I want to be more active. I want to be more artistic. I don't want to be tired all the time, which is what's been happening lately. My job is not stressing me out. That's a refreshing change of pace. But it does take a lot out of me. I have to leave 2 hours early, and I get home an hour after I get out of work. The commute is really taxing. It's not the drive that's bad, it's the time that it wastes. And then you get wiped out from being on the road constantly.
The internship is going great. I'm doing several pages daily, and I've already gotten one cover... Okay, so it was the Religion cover. But still, you gotta start somewhere. The environment is laid back and entertaining, like every newsroom I've worked in so far. But I can't do this forever.
I like the fact that I'm making a decent wage, I don't like the fact that I have to fill up my gas tank every two or three days. But the prestige and the experience of working here can only help me. And I'm glad for that.
I just got the Communication Arts Illustration Annual in the mail today. It's 230 pages of pure artistic skill that I can only dream of achieving. The thing about my job that sucks is the fact that there's almost no creativity involved. It's pagination. That's it. At least until they send me to the graphics area, which should be happening in a couple of weeks.
I see these incredible drawings, paintings, digital illustrations, and I want to be a part of it. I want to put my fantastical thoughts, these images running around in my head down on paper. But there just isn't time or energy to do it right now. Or the funds for that matter. I don't have great art supplies, and I'll just have to wait for my financial aid to come in for help on that, which will be around September.
I think I'm just really experiencing the summertime blues. I'm stuck in an office all day, while I see my peers going off to the river, or playing basketball or beach volleyball. Everyone's outside, and I'm staring at pixels day in and day out. Oh well, I'll try to give myself a break soon. Maybe this weekend I'll just stay home and take my sketching tools to the pool area at my complex. That should help.
Speaking of the apartment. I just got a phone call from them saying that I'm going to be rooming with someone for the next few weeks. His name's Josh, he's got some issues with his apartment, so he'll be staying in mine until the end of July. Meh. I hope he's cool.