my last time clarifying.
when people are angry at me over something that is not true or when they are violently angry with me over something that is really just a misunderstanding or anything like that, i find it hilarious.
seriously, people being angry with me first instills a feeling a of shock, and then i laugh.
it also lends to my ballsy nature because if i'm amused by you, i'm more apt to play with you. i don't do that with everyone though. if i care about the person that i've angered, i'm not going to play. i'm just going to stay away because i don't actually want the person i care about to hurt. in contrast, i don't want the person i care about to think they have a free pass to be a dick to me.
now the tricky part is when they are reportedly now sad. i'm bad at people being sad. i have a deep inner need to happy up the sad. hell, i have an intense need to cheer the angry if walking away is not an option (jay was pretty mad at me the other day at work, and i got him to laugh "the first time that day").
i am also the type that when i hear someone say "you don't care about me and you never did" that i will just shrug my shoulders. no one likes to be told that they don't care about people that they do, but i can't control anyone's thoughts and i'm not going to sit there and play the "oh come on yes i dooooooooo" game. it's a sick manipulative game. i have a policy with manipulative games.
as much as i /want/ to play them because i know that i'm good at it, i won't, because i'm just not that kind of person anymore.
and i guess the only reason i am saying this is because i know you're still following me and some people are still choosing to report on your thoughts and feelings towards me (although i feel that i have made it abundantly clear that i don't want to hear about it).
i know that you have expressed that i'm going to come back. i know that you have also expressed that i will never come back. so i will clarify:
there will never be you and me again. after all the things that you have said in the past and all the things that you have recently said, i'm not willing to ever go back. you have brought my integrity into question. you have brought my intelligence into question. you have brought my moral fortitude into question. if anyone can make the argument that the other one never cared, i can. i have never questioned these things about you. i have never encouraged my friends to do that either. so there will never be an "us" ever again, even with the amazingly fun times. even with the movie watching and the laughing and the flea market and indoor mini golfing and beaching and nintendo wii'ing, they are not worth all the bad things that you have said about me. i am willingly sacrificing my ability to make any more of those memories in favor of ensuring i don't have someone going out of their way to say mean and horrible things about me.
seriously, people being angry with me first instills a feeling a of shock, and then i laugh.
it also lends to my ballsy nature because if i'm amused by you, i'm more apt to play with you. i don't do that with everyone though. if i care about the person that i've angered, i'm not going to play. i'm just going to stay away because i don't actually want the person i care about to hurt. in contrast, i don't want the person i care about to think they have a free pass to be a dick to me.
now the tricky part is when they are reportedly now sad. i'm bad at people being sad. i have a deep inner need to happy up the sad. hell, i have an intense need to cheer the angry if walking away is not an option (jay was pretty mad at me the other day at work, and i got him to laugh "the first time that day").
i am also the type that when i hear someone say "you don't care about me and you never did" that i will just shrug my shoulders. no one likes to be told that they don't care about people that they do, but i can't control anyone's thoughts and i'm not going to sit there and play the "oh come on yes i dooooooooo" game. it's a sick manipulative game. i have a policy with manipulative games.
as much as i /want/ to play them because i know that i'm good at it, i won't, because i'm just not that kind of person anymore.
and i guess the only reason i am saying this is because i know you're still following me and some people are still choosing to report on your thoughts and feelings towards me (although i feel that i have made it abundantly clear that i don't want to hear about it).
i know that you have expressed that i'm going to come back. i know that you have also expressed that i will never come back. so i will clarify:
there will never be you and me again. after all the things that you have said in the past and all the things that you have recently said, i'm not willing to ever go back. you have brought my integrity into question. you have brought my intelligence into question. you have brought my moral fortitude into question. if anyone can make the argument that the other one never cared, i can. i have never questioned these things about you. i have never encouraged my friends to do that either. so there will never be an "us" ever again, even with the amazingly fun times. even with the movie watching and the laughing and the flea market and indoor mini golfing and beaching and nintendo wii'ing, they are not worth all the bad things that you have said about me. i am willingly sacrificing my ability to make any more of those memories in favor of ensuring i don't have someone going out of their way to say mean and horrible things about me.