i miss dancing...
didn't do much over the weekend. work pretty much drained me out. on sunday i headed to the association for dance practice! ok, i lied. i didn't go for practice! haha i went to drop off my ballet slippers for miss melon_dy (whom i've finally met for the first time!!). wow being back there, i have to admit i miss it all!! just remembering back... its' been awhile!
i remember when i first started.. i was pretty young. probablly in grade 7. my mom forced me to dance cause she was the only girl in the family who never got to dance. i hated her for making me do something i didn't want to do. i had no choice. she drove me there and dropped me off! standing there, being the second youngest dancer, not knowing anyone, not knowing how to move the way the other girls did. i was so shy and quiet.
as the years went on, we were probablly at our 2nd or 3rd dance teacher. and finally they tell us we get to perform! there was about 8 of us. and they only need 6 to perform. obviously i didn't get to perform cause i was inexperienced, i never smiled, i didn't have the same slippers as everyone else =\ so i went home being all pissed off. dancing for X numbers of years and not being able to dance. i wanted to quit again! it was totally unfair but i understood why i didn't get to perform.
i kept dancing and finally! during the summer we finally decided to go back to performing for folklorama! it was the greatest! but as stubborn as i was, i never smiled. everytime someone took a picture, i'd look like i was ready to punch someone out! haha =X i never meant to do so, but i never really learnt to keep a smile on my face. and there was me and lisa. the two that hated everything! hey, we were "teenagers" who were too cool for everything! we never did our hair the way everyone else had it, we were suppose to wear bright-hookerish-makeup with bright pink lipstick and blush! oh did we ever hate it. we wore nothing but dark dark dark colors. brown eyeshadown, black liner, and brown lipstick! the costumes were done up nicely and lisa and i would change it. we wouldn't wear certain things, and we had nice decorations on the costumes and we would rip it off! =X we were so bad together. folklorama that year was the greatest!
after folklorama, all the older dancers (lily, tina, celina, mi hong, sherry, janie, laura, kathy, etc) quit. =\ i was starting to have so much fun with them. they were like my mentors. i would always admire the way they danced. they were always so focused while lisa and i would be sitting there joking around and laughing at every little thing. soon after they all the older dancers quit, younger people started dancing. it was getting exciting. and that was when we started talking to anna! not long after, lisa quit. so it was just me and anna.
as of 4 years ago, there was so many performances, so many dancers who came and left. and it was the beginning of when i actually liked dancing! i started focusing, "trying" to smile more (which didn't get me anywhere! HA!), spotting my head, actually doing movements, etc. i felt i had to! i was the oldest dancer there and all the little kids looked up to us! i actually liked performing. i have to admit, i did have butterflies in my stomach most of the time, but i got over it. it totally flattered me when people actually remembered me off stage!
the greatest year had to be my last folklorama!! we had sooooo much fun! from getting ready with different hairstyles to our attempt of doing "stage makeup", to trying to had some jazz to our performances, adding and upbeat to our music, false eyelashes, to whore-ish makeups! all in all we did it all together and gave it our best!!
now that i'm gone, alot more have joined and alot more has come back. i really wish i could be there to join all the fun with them but i can't. i might stop in every now and then for some practices just for old time sake. which reminds me, i'm going back again next week to teach the new dancers some old dances. i have officially passed on my shoes! and i know she'll do great!! right mel?? lol btw, don't tell the girls about me and lisa distroying the costumes! LOL
it totally sucks how i can't/don't have time to dance anymore.. i finally learnt to like it and now i have to quit. i thought about it on sunday when i got home, my mom forced me to do something i didn't want to do, and when i started to like it, she forced me to quit. funny how life works. i know it's my choice if i want to go back or not, but with the upcoming changes in the future, it wouldn't work out... but i know you girls will do great and i'll come watch some of your performances. i'm gonna miss you all.. and all the girls i've ever danced with... you girls ROCK!!
i remember when i first started.. i was pretty young. probablly in grade 7. my mom forced me to dance cause she was the only girl in the family who never got to dance. i hated her for making me do something i didn't want to do. i had no choice. she drove me there and dropped me off! standing there, being the second youngest dancer, not knowing anyone, not knowing how to move the way the other girls did. i was so shy and quiet.
as the years went on, we were probablly at our 2nd or 3rd dance teacher. and finally they tell us we get to perform! there was about 8 of us. and they only need 6 to perform. obviously i didn't get to perform cause i was inexperienced, i never smiled, i didn't have the same slippers as everyone else =\ so i went home being all pissed off. dancing for X numbers of years and not being able to dance. i wanted to quit again! it was totally unfair but i understood why i didn't get to perform.
i kept dancing and finally! during the summer we finally decided to go back to performing for folklorama! it was the greatest! but as stubborn as i was, i never smiled. everytime someone took a picture, i'd look like i was ready to punch someone out! haha =X i never meant to do so, but i never really learnt to keep a smile on my face. and there was me and lisa. the two that hated everything! hey, we were "teenagers" who were too cool for everything! we never did our hair the way everyone else had it, we were suppose to wear bright-hookerish-makeup with bright pink lipstick and blush! oh did we ever hate it. we wore nothing but dark dark dark colors. brown eyeshadown, black liner, and brown lipstick! the costumes were done up nicely and lisa and i would change it. we wouldn't wear certain things, and we had nice decorations on the costumes and we would rip it off! =X we were so bad together. folklorama that year was the greatest!
after folklorama, all the older dancers (lily, tina, celina, mi hong, sherry, janie, laura, kathy, etc) quit. =\ i was starting to have so much fun with them. they were like my mentors. i would always admire the way they danced. they were always so focused while lisa and i would be sitting there joking around and laughing at every little thing. soon after they all the older dancers quit, younger people started dancing. it was getting exciting. and that was when we started talking to anna! not long after, lisa quit. so it was just me and anna.
as of 4 years ago, there was so many performances, so many dancers who came and left. and it was the beginning of when i actually liked dancing! i started focusing, "trying" to smile more (which didn't get me anywhere! HA!), spotting my head, actually doing movements, etc. i felt i had to! i was the oldest dancer there and all the little kids looked up to us! i actually liked performing. i have to admit, i did have butterflies in my stomach most of the time, but i got over it. it totally flattered me when people actually remembered me off stage!
the greatest year had to be my last folklorama!! we had sooooo much fun! from getting ready with different hairstyles to our attempt of doing "stage makeup", to trying to had some jazz to our performances, adding and upbeat to our music, false eyelashes, to whore-ish makeups! all in all we did it all together and gave it our best!!
now that i'm gone, alot more have joined and alot more has come back. i really wish i could be there to join all the fun with them but i can't. i might stop in every now and then for some practices just for old time sake. which reminds me, i'm going back again next week to teach the new dancers some old dances. i have officially passed on my shoes! and i know she'll do great!! right mel?? lol btw, don't tell the girls about me and lisa distroying the costumes! LOL
it totally sucks how i can't/don't have time to dance anymore.. i finally learnt to like it and now i have to quit. i thought about it on sunday when i got home, my mom forced me to do something i didn't want to do, and when i started to like it, she forced me to quit. funny how life works. i know it's my choice if i want to go back or not, but with the upcoming changes in the future, it wouldn't work out... but i know you girls will do great and i'll come watch some of your performances. i'm gonna miss you all.. and all the girls i've ever danced with... you girls ROCK!!