...
Something is rather WRONG with me, in that what I am doing, without explanation and several more years of experience that most teenagers can't claim, would be considered wrong.
I'm not a hedonist
but
that discussion
made it seem that way
I don't really want to, for me
it's nice to just lie there
like a rag doll
completely susceptible to gravity
but able to spring up and leave
without bonds
without obligations
but I know
for seconds at least
it helps you
whoever you are
you reaffirm
that this is temporary
you understand that compliments mean nothing
you understand how altruism is bullshit
but
I will end up with a certain person
and it's not you
or anyone here
but I entertain the thought of a week
and humor you for a few hours
and you do the same
...(work)...
damn, do I want a banana chocolate chip muffin or a lowfat blueberry?
I think I want someone a little less temporary
but someone who understands and can visualize my perceptions, without skewing them
I'm tired of dress up and 'make-believe'
I'm also tired of facial hair and people who take "the Gentle Art" literally
and most of you
I'm not a hedonist
but
that discussion
made it seem that way
I don't really want to, for me
it's nice to just lie there
like a rag doll
completely susceptible to gravity
but able to spring up and leave
without bonds
without obligations
but I know
for seconds at least
it helps you
whoever you are
you reaffirm
that this is temporary
you understand that compliments mean nothing
you understand how altruism is bullshit
but
I will end up with a certain person
and it's not you
or anyone here
but I entertain the thought of a week
and humor you for a few hours
and you do the same
...(work)...
damn, do I want a banana chocolate chip muffin or a lowfat blueberry?
I think I want someone a little less temporary
but someone who understands and can visualize my perceptions, without skewing them
I'm tired of dress up and 'make-believe'
I'm also tired of facial hair and people who take "the Gentle Art" literally
and most of you