A day of extremes...
Just a warning: I am not holding back at all in this rant and I am actually going to be completely honest no matter how much it hurts who it's about...
Well, today I managed to get into hopefully the last fight I will have with a certain person (she knows who she is if she should find this) because I will no longer put up with her complete bullshit and making me feel like crap! She may not have thought of it as serious, but it went past the actual materialness of the argument. I didn't care so much that I could have met the band and gotten free tickets had you not "forgotten" about me, but that you do this EVERY FUCKING TIME!! You act like it's no big deal, that I shouldn't feel upset/offended/hurt in any way, shape, or form, that I should get over it right now and stop wasting your time. Well, guess what, sweetheart? I've gotten over it! Cause we're over for real now. I'm NOT going to have you walk all over me! I'm NOT going to censor my emotions because you don't know how to express yours! And I SURE AS HELL won't forgive you this time!!! I have fucking had it with you and your fucking selfish attitude, and your stupid drugs, and your stupid whorish promiscuity! I want nothing to do with any of it! I am nothing like you, I don't know how the hell we were friends in the first place, and if you read this and are wondering how the hell I can be saying this to you, well, sweety, it's about time someone fucking told you! You were a horrible friend most of the time, you made me feel good about myself in the beginning and then you hurt me repeatedly! You hid things from me, I know you've lied to me, even stupid little things (you lie to everyone even for no reason - stupid little lies), and you make me feel too much like shit to forgive you...once again. It sucks that this had to happen over some stupid concert tickets, but the way you go about things, really, it as if you really don't care about anyone's feeling but your own, and that's too much for me! I can't handle a friend who doesn't give a shit about their friends enough to watch what they say to them and at least attempt to consider their feelings! At times, I thought you were the best thing that happened to me; at times, I must have had my head up my ass...
Without this "friend" of mine, however, I can go back to having friends who care about their friends, and renew the friendships that she caused me to lose by being herself and hurting people. I am reassured I'm doing the right thing by ending our friendship with the thought of having "normal" friends, a lot like you guys out there that read these journals of mine (you are AWESOME people no matter what you may think, and I would know, cause I've seen what's out there obviously, and it's not too pretty).
To all of my friends out there: you mean more to me than you think, and I really cannot say this enough, but I'm very thankful to have you guys :)
Well, today I managed to get into hopefully the last fight I will have with a certain person (she knows who she is if she should find this) because I will no longer put up with her complete bullshit and making me feel like crap! She may not have thought of it as serious, but it went past the actual materialness of the argument. I didn't care so much that I could have met the band and gotten free tickets had you not "forgotten" about me, but that you do this EVERY FUCKING TIME!! You act like it's no big deal, that I shouldn't feel upset/offended/hurt in any way, shape, or form, that I should get over it right now and stop wasting your time. Well, guess what, sweetheart? I've gotten over it! Cause we're over for real now. I'm NOT going to have you walk all over me! I'm NOT going to censor my emotions because you don't know how to express yours! And I SURE AS HELL won't forgive you this time!!! I have fucking had it with you and your fucking selfish attitude, and your stupid drugs, and your stupid whorish promiscuity! I want nothing to do with any of it! I am nothing like you, I don't know how the hell we were friends in the first place, and if you read this and are wondering how the hell I can be saying this to you, well, sweety, it's about time someone fucking told you! You were a horrible friend most of the time, you made me feel good about myself in the beginning and then you hurt me repeatedly! You hid things from me, I know you've lied to me, even stupid little things (you lie to everyone even for no reason - stupid little lies), and you make me feel too much like shit to forgive you...once again. It sucks that this had to happen over some stupid concert tickets, but the way you go about things, really, it as if you really don't care about anyone's feeling but your own, and that's too much for me! I can't handle a friend who doesn't give a shit about their friends enough to watch what they say to them and at least attempt to consider their feelings! At times, I thought you were the best thing that happened to me; at times, I must have had my head up my ass...
Without this "friend" of mine, however, I can go back to having friends who care about their friends, and renew the friendships that she caused me to lose by being herself and hurting people. I am reassured I'm doing the right thing by ending our friendship with the thought of having "normal" friends, a lot like you guys out there that read these journals of mine (you are AWESOME people no matter what you may think, and I would know, cause I've seen what's out there obviously, and it's not too pretty).
To all of my friends out there: you mean more to me than you think, and I really cannot say this enough, but I'm very thankful to have you guys :)