It's OVER

[needofsalvation]

It's over. But where there was once pain there is only emptiness. I don't care. This is how I used to feel: numb. I have cut myself three times today! Moments of weakness..... Wheeeeheheheheheheheheheheheeee! Fuck off, people. None of you ever gave a damn and I don't care about it. This is probably my last "LiveJournal" entry. I'm going to delete this after this week. If there is anything you want to say, say it now, because after this I'm going to complete reclusion.... No human contact besides the posse. The posse has no emotions. Well, one: hate. Towards Taulbee. Towards the world.

All I have ever gotten in this world is shit. I am a nice guy inside and all I've gotten for it is hurt, used, re-used, abused, and thrown away. I'm done being "nice" to even those who seem to care. I'm dead inside and I can't be ressurrected. Fuck off. I hate everyone.

If there are some "final words" you'd like to say to me, comment. This entry is public on purpose.

74 days, 22 hours, and 34 minutes WASTED!

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

Shallow skin, I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I LOVE, YOU HATE
But I guess I don't care any more...

Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God, the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore...

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch, the less I feel
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I found out,
my life was a LIE
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING