I'm so selfish...
If you haven't already, you should read the entry before this one...I wrote it last period. Anyways, I feel like a selfish fucking jerk. I basically begged Michelle to come over even though she said she really doesn't feel like having anyone over. I feel so selfish. I don't think I should go. I feel horrible inside for asking her so much that she eventually said, "for a little while." Once again, I'm so fucking selfish. I just want to be with her, ya know? But I'm being selfish about it.... .:*sigh*:. Am I so selfish as to just want to be with her constantly? You know, it just so happens, though, that the veryday that is the only chance I get to be with her for God knows when, she doesn't want to see me. Also, it just so happens that this is the first day that she has seen my hair cut the way that it is. Probably just coincidences. I don't think I'll go. I shouldn't. I'll ask her if she's sure that she wants me there. I hate myself for this. I hate myself for a lot right now. Why is life such bitter pain? All the time...pain.... If I do go, I'm going to go and change my clothes, robably, before I go. I dunno why you ppl would want to know or care about that, but, shit, I don't really give a fuck right now. What happened to me being neutral? What happened to me being at peace with everything? I guess neither is destined for me... I'm always meant to be on the receiving end of pain, the evil end of the spectrum.... I don't know what to type, but the people around me are telling stupid jokes, and the only way to get away from them is to tpe shit on LJ. I hate this class. I just realized it. Even though I get a grade for doing literally nothing but using the internet, I hate the people in here. Scott (you know the one, Michelle) is being stupid and telling dirty jokes. He's so fucking annoying. Along with every other human being on the planet. No one cares about me. No one. No one.