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I hate being lonely.
I miss the guy I was seeing. I'm not sure if I miss HIM or just the fact that I was in a somewhat relationship with him. I cannot deny that I miss the sex but that could just because he's the only one I've had sex with. But I think of him and I remember us sitting/laying in bed watching Korean movies and me caressing the lines of his tattoos on his arms. I remember him singing a Spanish pop song that said "I love you so much every day a little more." thinking he can't sing for the life of him but it was totally cute. And then I think of the time he said he was interested in some girl and that we were only friends and couldn't have sex anymore.
and now,
I have a crush on a guy that I'm pretty sure he is not interested. He seems like a nice guy and like my friend was telling me he's different. Maybe I like the fact that he's a little different or it could just be that I like the fact that he's he's unattainable to me. But for now, I take in the few moments I could stare at him and maybe talk to him and hope maybe one day...
I just wish I could be happy....
I miss the guy I was seeing. I'm not sure if I miss HIM or just the fact that I was in a somewhat relationship with him. I cannot deny that I miss the sex but that could just because he's the only one I've had sex with. But I think of him and I remember us sitting/laying in bed watching Korean movies and me caressing the lines of his tattoos on his arms. I remember him singing a Spanish pop song that said "I love you so much every day a little more." thinking he can't sing for the life of him but it was totally cute. And then I think of the time he said he was interested in some girl and that we were only friends and couldn't have sex anymore.
and now,
I have a crush on a guy that I'm pretty sure he is not interested. He seems like a nice guy and like my friend was telling me he's different. Maybe I like the fact that he's a little different or it could just be that I like the fact that he's he's unattainable to me. But for now, I take in the few moments I could stare at him and maybe talk to him and hope maybe one day...
I just wish I could be happy....