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Sometimes plans seem better in your head.
I had thought of asking E for sex as my birthday present.But what I had in mind was have sex, and when it was over head on out like nothing had happened and maybe he's be weirded out. But he didn't remember my brithday till the next day. He apologized and invited me over to his place. While watching Fail videos he asked if I got any gifts. I told him no. Then he hugs me and tells me that he's got his penis for a gift. Later he said he was gonna go lay down. I was ready to head out but he asked me to sit with him. I ended up laying in bed with his arm around me and then he told me he had a gift for me and that it was nice and big. And out came his cock. He asked me if I wanted to know where it goes and if I did I had to drop my pants. I got him a condon and dropped my pants. I was on all fours ready to take it in. He had some trouble sticking it in but once in, it felt nice. He started to thurst at a normal pase. He asked me if I wanted it harder. I said yes and boy did he pounding me so hard. It didn't last very much because he came.He asked me if it was good. He got tired right after. He lay there caressing my arm as he was closing his eyes. I moved and he woke up. He told me he was getting tired and I just said well then maybe I should go. He passed out a little more and I got up from bed. He woke up and told me if I was going to leave. I told him I was so he can make sure his door was locked. And I left after he gave me a hug.
As I walked out, I just thought I got what I wanted but it didn't feel like I wanted it to be. I wanted to feel satified but I wasn't. I wanted more sex and I wanted more from him. But I didn't get that. I had sex and I kind of felt stupid for doing it. I drove him crying thinking how I just want to much out of life but don't do anything to get it and how I make sure to hurt myself when I start to feel better. Now its the next day and he hasn't messaged me like he usually does. I wanted to use him for sex... and it just looks like I got used for sex.
I wasn't even fully satisfied. I usally don't.
I had thought of asking E for sex as my birthday present.But what I had in mind was have sex, and when it was over head on out like nothing had happened and maybe he's be weirded out. But he didn't remember my brithday till the next day. He apologized and invited me over to his place. While watching Fail videos he asked if I got any gifts. I told him no. Then he hugs me and tells me that he's got his penis for a gift. Later he said he was gonna go lay down. I was ready to head out but he asked me to sit with him. I ended up laying in bed with his arm around me and then he told me he had a gift for me and that it was nice and big. And out came his cock. He asked me if I wanted to know where it goes and if I did I had to drop my pants. I got him a condon and dropped my pants. I was on all fours ready to take it in. He had some trouble sticking it in but once in, it felt nice. He started to thurst at a normal pase. He asked me if I wanted it harder. I said yes and boy did he pounding me so hard. It didn't last very much because he came.He asked me if it was good. He got tired right after. He lay there caressing my arm as he was closing his eyes. I moved and he woke up. He told me he was getting tired and I just said well then maybe I should go. He passed out a little more and I got up from bed. He woke up and told me if I was going to leave. I told him I was so he can make sure his door was locked. And I left after he gave me a hug.
As I walked out, I just thought I got what I wanted but it didn't feel like I wanted it to be. I wanted to feel satified but I wasn't. I wanted more sex and I wanted more from him. But I didn't get that. I had sex and I kind of felt stupid for doing it. I drove him crying thinking how I just want to much out of life but don't do anything to get it and how I make sure to hurt myself when I start to feel better. Now its the next day and he hasn't messaged me like he usually does. I wanted to use him for sex... and it just looks like I got used for sex.
I wasn't even fully satisfied. I usally don't.