"Through all the nonsense, there is a constant..."
so i found out my mom is using heroine as her own personal flu shot. i give up on being mad.
i still feel like shit.
scott is teaching me how to do ink. im excited. he let me do 2 on his chest last night. they didnt come out half bad. this is something i could really get into. its not piercing, but its close. i rock at lettering cause of all the tagging i practiced constantly.
my mix cds are the shit. no applause needed. :)
new tattoos make me happy. X. No Salvation .X on one wrist and X. No Forgiveness .X on the other. i love it. bite me.
tommy was explaining to me the story again last night. he said that they were sitting in a circle at chris', and he was sitting acrossed from a mirror. he said he doesnt know at all what posesed him, but that he just watched himself pick up the gun and put it to his head, and pull the trigger. he said it was like he was shorting out. i dont know why but that story never gets old. it fascinates me. i dunno.
josh and i are back to being best friends. the big brother i never wanted. :) im so glad hes back in the house.
jake came back. LOTS of drama with Coline. kinda sucks. hes back to thinking we should try again. i love the kid to death, but not for all the T in the world.
mom wants me to move in with scott, so at the end of this month i might be gone. he wants to get an apartment in dayton in a few months. no matter how much i hate dayton, i hate albert st more, so ill probably go. damn it. im still contemplating moving to penn with james. i could go to school at his college and stuff, and i know hed set me straight. i just hate to leave everyone behind.
scott might be getting a job as a bouncer at elbows. i kinda hope he doesnt, cause then i wouldnt be able to see him all the time, but if it makes hime happy then whatever.
all star tour is comin!!!
sparky had a tumor removed yesterday. im not going into how pissed off i am at my "father".
ive decided to quit drinking, except on special occasions. my tolerance is too high. its stupid.
feeling comfortably sociopathic again. numb. no salvation, no forgiveness. my new philosophy. thank you brian.
i brought Xany over this weekend. everyone loves him, cept amy, and shes terrified. hes the bestest little snake in the world. :)
trying to find motels in garretsville ohio, but it seems that no site can even find it on a map. i guess were gonna have to take a roadtrip to even find this one. i gotta save major money. i hate to say it, but a car is no longer my number one priority.
ive been deathly ill due to my nonexistant immune system, but scott picked me up from work the other night, and he and his mom have been taking amazing care of me. he ran me a bubble bath with candles and everything, and keeps giving me backrubs and fetching me things. at first i protested cause i felt helpless, but he wouldnt stop, so now i give up. his moms even been wrapping me up and buying me meds and stuff. i like this whole having a mom thing. theyve been taking such good care of me all weekend. and people wonder why i dont ever go home.
kayleens calling me wanting to hang out. shes lonley since frankies gone. hes supposed to come home soon. im excited. i miss him.
thats it for now. i gotta go to bed. "Giant Q, We Love You!!"
:)
i still feel like shit.
scott is teaching me how to do ink. im excited. he let me do 2 on his chest last night. they didnt come out half bad. this is something i could really get into. its not piercing, but its close. i rock at lettering cause of all the tagging i practiced constantly.
my mix cds are the shit. no applause needed. :)
new tattoos make me happy. X. No Salvation .X on one wrist and X. No Forgiveness .X on the other. i love it. bite me.
tommy was explaining to me the story again last night. he said that they were sitting in a circle at chris', and he was sitting acrossed from a mirror. he said he doesnt know at all what posesed him, but that he just watched himself pick up the gun and put it to his head, and pull the trigger. he said it was like he was shorting out. i dont know why but that story never gets old. it fascinates me. i dunno.
josh and i are back to being best friends. the big brother i never wanted. :) im so glad hes back in the house.
jake came back. LOTS of drama with Coline. kinda sucks. hes back to thinking we should try again. i love the kid to death, but not for all the T in the world.
mom wants me to move in with scott, so at the end of this month i might be gone. he wants to get an apartment in dayton in a few months. no matter how much i hate dayton, i hate albert st more, so ill probably go. damn it. im still contemplating moving to penn with james. i could go to school at his college and stuff, and i know hed set me straight. i just hate to leave everyone behind.
scott might be getting a job as a bouncer at elbows. i kinda hope he doesnt, cause then i wouldnt be able to see him all the time, but if it makes hime happy then whatever.
all star tour is comin!!!
sparky had a tumor removed yesterday. im not going into how pissed off i am at my "father".
ive decided to quit drinking, except on special occasions. my tolerance is too high. its stupid.
feeling comfortably sociopathic again. numb. no salvation, no forgiveness. my new philosophy. thank you brian.
i brought Xany over this weekend. everyone loves him, cept amy, and shes terrified. hes the bestest little snake in the world. :)
trying to find motels in garretsville ohio, but it seems that no site can even find it on a map. i guess were gonna have to take a roadtrip to even find this one. i gotta save major money. i hate to say it, but a car is no longer my number one priority.
ive been deathly ill due to my nonexistant immune system, but scott picked me up from work the other night, and he and his mom have been taking amazing care of me. he ran me a bubble bath with candles and everything, and keeps giving me backrubs and fetching me things. at first i protested cause i felt helpless, but he wouldnt stop, so now i give up. his moms even been wrapping me up and buying me meds and stuff. i like this whole having a mom thing. theyve been taking such good care of me all weekend. and people wonder why i dont ever go home.
kayleens calling me wanting to hang out. shes lonley since frankies gone. hes supposed to come home soon. im excited. i miss him.
thats it for now. i gotta go to bed. "Giant Q, We Love You!!"
:)