// i have come so far and i cannot return //
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stupid thoughts while listening to inspiring music...
// Praying for myself.
These thoughts I try to hide.
I have faith in me and hope this will survive.
But it's tearing me apart.
I can't hear the words by which I guide.
So I must ask again who will carry me. //
how can i hope do to any kind of good when i cant even fix myself? can determination control it all alone?
// I cannot deny that nothing can defend
from the helplesness that's cutting deep inside,
and I cannot prevent the thought that nothing's real.
It seems I've waited years for this day to end. //
futility is a face that's always looming behind your eyes. justification ceases to be important and apathy takes over. sometimes i feel so tired. tired of it all. as if i've been alive years and years and years. but it's only a day. a single day.
// The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me,
Are not there behind the face staring back at me.
The anger and the pain of knowing where I am.
I have come so far and I cannot return. //
it's too late to turn back now. i've already started and i have to finish... yet where is the strength that i need? i find it harder and harder to become angry and sad... the things that i once cherished and relied upon to get me through the hardest moments have gone away. without them will i even know who i am?
// Nothing I can do that I have not done.
No words I can say. No truth left that I can see.
So must I let this end so everything falls apart.
Before I live the life as I have always done. //
when you're fighting against eternity and ideas that have no real definition how can you tell when you've won? winning isn't even the point yet that's all any of us really have to judge our lives by. screaming in the dark can only take you so far before you realize the futulity of it all and slip back into obscurity. in a true reality without beginning or end, black or white, and no time... where am i ? where are you ?
// Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see.
So nothing falls apart. So that it does not end.
I cannot return. I can't start again. //
stupid thoughts while listening to inspiring music...
// Praying for myself.
These thoughts I try to hide.
I have faith in me and hope this will survive.
But it's tearing me apart.
I can't hear the words by which I guide.
So I must ask again who will carry me. //
how can i hope do to any kind of good when i cant even fix myself? can determination control it all alone?
// I cannot deny that nothing can defend
from the helplesness that's cutting deep inside,
and I cannot prevent the thought that nothing's real.
It seems I've waited years for this day to end. //
futility is a face that's always looming behind your eyes. justification ceases to be important and apathy takes over. sometimes i feel so tired. tired of it all. as if i've been alive years and years and years. but it's only a day. a single day.
// The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me,
Are not there behind the face staring back at me.
The anger and the pain of knowing where I am.
I have come so far and I cannot return. //
it's too late to turn back now. i've already started and i have to finish... yet where is the strength that i need? i find it harder and harder to become angry and sad... the things that i once cherished and relied upon to get me through the hardest moments have gone away. without them will i even know who i am?
// Nothing I can do that I have not done.
No words I can say. No truth left that I can see.
So must I let this end so everything falls apart.
Before I live the life as I have always done. //
when you're fighting against eternity and ideas that have no real definition how can you tell when you've won? winning isn't even the point yet that's all any of us really have to judge our lives by. screaming in the dark can only take you so far before you realize the futulity of it all and slip back into obscurity. in a true reality without beginning or end, black or white, and no time... where am i ? where are you ?
// Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see.
So nothing falls apart. So that it does not end.
I cannot return. I can't start again. //