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I still feel like a kid...
I barely even look my age.
Sometimes I see people that are my age, or sometimes even younger, and just assume they are years older than me. Like if I'm watching a dumbass show on MTV where 5 dudes are dating the same bitch or some stupid shit like that...it'll introduce the guys, and most of the time they are 18-20 years old...but I never would have guessed from looking at them. It's almost like the media is shouting "this is how people your age are supposed to look."
I don't think I'll feel like an adult until I get married...not that that's the milestone I feel I'm destined to achieve...I just can't imagine feeling any differently after reaching that point. I can't imagine feeling like I do now when I'm married.
This mindset will disappear when I get married, and that scares me. Not that it's even that great of a mindset, it's just that I don't think I'll be the same person once I mind-meld with a member of the opposite sex. As I am right now, if I'm ever unhappy, I usually know the reason why. I'm afraid of getting to the point again where I'm unhappy and I have no idea what got me there, or how to get out of it...it just comes and goes, doesn't behave by any logic, doesn't give a shit about the order of everyday life. It doesn't respect anyone or anything.
I guess if 30 is the new 20, then 22 is the new 12...if that's the case, then I'm all set. Yet I know it doesn't work that way.
I barely even look my age.
Sometimes I see people that are my age, or sometimes even younger, and just assume they are years older than me. Like if I'm watching a dumbass show on MTV where 5 dudes are dating the same bitch or some stupid shit like that...it'll introduce the guys, and most of the time they are 18-20 years old...but I never would have guessed from looking at them. It's almost like the media is shouting "this is how people your age are supposed to look."
I don't think I'll feel like an adult until I get married...not that that's the milestone I feel I'm destined to achieve...I just can't imagine feeling any differently after reaching that point. I can't imagine feeling like I do now when I'm married.
This mindset will disappear when I get married, and that scares me. Not that it's even that great of a mindset, it's just that I don't think I'll be the same person once I mind-meld with a member of the opposite sex. As I am right now, if I'm ever unhappy, I usually know the reason why. I'm afraid of getting to the point again where I'm unhappy and I have no idea what got me there, or how to get out of it...it just comes and goes, doesn't behave by any logic, doesn't give a shit about the order of everyday life. It doesn't respect anyone or anything.
I guess if 30 is the new 20, then 22 is the new 12...if that's the case, then I'm all set. Yet I know it doesn't work that way.