nervous breakdown
im so fuckin sick of people. im so fuckin sick of thinking how amazing my life is and how i have such awesome friends one week and then feeling like i have no one the next. its just such extremes that i think really get me down idk maybe i am bipolar i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me anymore... i want a boyfriend so badly that im scared i wont be honest with myself and the next person that comes along ill take no matter how i feel about them just cuz i dont want to be alone anymore. tonite is the second time my friends are all doing something with out me and without even inviting me. like wtf why do i bother anymore. they claim last time they invited me but i dont even know anymore. maybe they really do all secretly hate me and find me annoying and im way to blind to see it cuz im so fuckin dumb. im done with parties im done with giving these people something to do when they do NOTHING for me. my summer party is legit canceled i dont want anything to do with these people anymore i am not moving into dannys. FUCK THEM. i also want to delete my facebook like god if my friends want to see how i they can fuckin call me not fb chat me or watever the fuck cuz they're bored at 2am im not ur fuckin entertainment. the only person that even fuckin calls me anymore is luke and thats cuz thats all he can do idk i cant even write anymore cuz im having a fuckin nervous break down and my bodies shaking and im just ughhh fuckkkk everything