Elude
As usual I've been meaning to write a lot more frequently but I can't quite find the time to do so. I've definitely got a whole lot going on in the brain that needs to escape, nothing particularly good or bad, just new/odd things that deserves some clarity. I'm on a break from work and school so I'm sure I'll have the occasional moment to jot and process.
Lately I have been developing my spontaneous side. On a whim I can now go party, drink, sleep over, come home super late, all that jazz. I now sleep when I can get it, sometimes three hours here but other times twelve hours over there. My schedule is weird so I have to learn to expand my hours of availability to accommodate any random situation. Trying to reduce my number one life killer - missed opportunities.
I got a fat check from the government. Trying to hold onto it. Temptation...
Facebook is exploding. I can no longer track everybody all on one page. I have to load about 4-5 times. It's quite the task now. I know I care too much about people when I jump on Facebook for the first time in a day because I get nervous, happy, and even upset. Bleh.
This also means that more people on FB are reading my Notes, some of which probably shouldn't but I should learn to not care. It's not that I say nasty things but it is more of the potential ragging I'll get for being "deep" or whatever. Eh, it's who I am so I shouldn't shy away from being called out on it. I'll say again, I write to analyze, not to hurt anybody else. Usually my thoughts are wrong to begin with.
I think the rest of my break will force me to learn to let go of certain things/feelings while embracing others. I believe I was on that path for a moment but I've gotten lazy, time to focus and get these bearings back. It's akin to heartache, usually I'm the only one that puts that on myself and there's no need to do so. Roll with the punches, go with the flow. Remembering that I am the prize and I am in control does make me feel pretty good.
Lately I have been developing my spontaneous side. On a whim I can now go party, drink, sleep over, come home super late, all that jazz. I now sleep when I can get it, sometimes three hours here but other times twelve hours over there. My schedule is weird so I have to learn to expand my hours of availability to accommodate any random situation. Trying to reduce my number one life killer - missed opportunities.
I got a fat check from the government. Trying to hold onto it. Temptation...
Facebook is exploding. I can no longer track everybody all on one page. I have to load about 4-5 times. It's quite the task now. I know I care too much about people when I jump on Facebook for the first time in a day because I get nervous, happy, and even upset. Bleh.
This also means that more people on FB are reading my Notes, some of which probably shouldn't but I should learn to not care. It's not that I say nasty things but it is more of the potential ragging I'll get for being "deep" or whatever. Eh, it's who I am so I shouldn't shy away from being called out on it. I'll say again, I write to analyze, not to hurt anybody else. Usually my thoughts are wrong to begin with.
I think the rest of my break will force me to learn to let go of certain things/feelings while embracing others. I believe I was on that path for a moment but I've gotten lazy, time to focus and get these bearings back. It's akin to heartache, usually I'm the only one that puts that on myself and there's no need to do so. Roll with the punches, go with the flow. Remembering that I am the prize and I am in control does make me feel pretty good.