Life update
So to the few friends on here that i actually have and haven't heard from me in quite some time:
First i would like to say i suck at blogs. :) Moving on tho. I am finalizing the process of starting college finally. I'm going to be getting my degree in game software development from westwood college of technology. I'm still in love with christina .. I don't think it is something that will ever go away .. i honestly hope it never does. Being around her regardless of any emoctions prior always raise's my spirits regardless of how bad the times are or anything .. i've always been a person to just sit and watch people and i love sitting and just watching her.
I've been looking at my "So Called" friends and realizing that they just keep me around for when they need me .. they really and truely arent friends. I planned a trip for me josh and caleb to Rhode Island for a get away .. i was paying for pretty much everything .. 3 tickets gas hotel food ... 8 hrs before we were supposed to leave he decided to bail on me... the real reasoning behind this .. i dont know .. this was our get away .. just to relax have fun .. he's getting married soon .. this was supposed to be my gift to him ..... i mean god we had been friends for over 12 years ... and now .. it means nothing he ditched on me had no real good excuse .... and i'm looking at some of my other "so called" friends who never invite me over just to hangout anymore or do things .. so what am i to them just someone who fix's shit or what? it's not what i want in my life nor what i look for in friends ...
Right now there really is only one person i am counting on to be there the next day ... butterfly ... i mean yeah josh lives here but ... he has his own plans .. which usually dont include me .. makes me end up worrying about him because he decides not to come home for 3 days and note call or anything to at least give me the benefit of the doubt he's still alive .... my life is so unstable .. i'm working full time ... soon to be going to school full time ... and working on a very very large scale project .... i just dont know what to do with life or wtf