thoughts
She's in my head she's on my mind no matter what i do or where i go im thinking about her ... i know where just friends i wish it could be more but all i can do is sit here ... hope i might get a chance knowing i probably wont like highschool friends i sit here and stare ... just stare at her and smile .. wishing it wasnt just friends hoping it was more knowing it wont be ... its ok i know i'll never let her drift farther away .. i just wish i could be closer ... just to hold her ... have her resting aginst me while i wrap my arms around her ... just hold her for hours ... i could spend eternity like that .... just holding ...... holding the one i care about the one i wish could be mine
looking at her brings a smile to my face no matter how down or sad i am .. no matter what is wrong if i look at her .. or even a picture of her it brings a smile to me i cant be down when i look at her i cant be sad it all just goes away in the crest of her smile
times i spend with her i cherish times around her i love .... times i hold her i wish would last forever .. but i know everything great must end eventually .. and thus i must let go and know that my place with her is not in that position but i must stand and support her .. as the friend i am thre isnt anything i wouldnt do for her ... regardless of what position it puts me in .. its just me its how i am for her ..
im sitting here at 4am writing my heart out because its on my mind and soul ... i need to get it out even tho i know it wont help ... but its there on the table .. out of my fingers into the text
i know im going to hurt myself with this ... i already know but if i dont try then why am i here im not going to sit in the shadows and let the opurtunties pass me up because im afraid its going to hurt ... i expect it to hurt i just hafta deal with the fact im going to get hurt i know it ... but she's worth getting hurt a hundred times over i dont know why its what my heart tells me
and its not like i get this way with anyone .... i believe in life you have the people you never forget ... the ones who stay in your heart forever ... we all have them or we will some people call it love .. others this or that i call it the unforgetables the people no matter what happens they may pass your mind but given the right statement a flood of memories come back and you sit there remembering the good times and bad .. thats what she is to me someone i will never forget someone who isnt just a thing someone who you make a comment and a flood of memories and emoctions come back ... someone who is forever either tucked away memory for the right moment to come out or right ontop of your mind but forever none the less
why i dont know ... it happens ... like i said not everyone ... there are plenty of people who we forget ... they might have just been flings or this or that but none the less unless there name is mentioned we have forgotten about them she is definattely not one of them
who is this person i am going on about .... im not telling she knows who she is ... we've already talked about this ... its something thats alot easier on both of us if some of our friends didnt know but whatever its there i still care deeply for her .. if things work out awesome if not .. ok were friends .. and i still care about her deeply and i'll be here for her no matter what happenes
there are so many things i wish ..... but they would just complicate things more ... and she doesnt want that so here i am .... sitting on the side lines watching the game ... here to help patch the wounds but never play...
looking at her brings a smile to my face no matter how down or sad i am .. no matter what is wrong if i look at her .. or even a picture of her it brings a smile to me i cant be down when i look at her i cant be sad it all just goes away in the crest of her smile
times i spend with her i cherish times around her i love .... times i hold her i wish would last forever .. but i know everything great must end eventually .. and thus i must let go and know that my place with her is not in that position but i must stand and support her .. as the friend i am thre isnt anything i wouldnt do for her ... regardless of what position it puts me in .. its just me its how i am for her ..
im sitting here at 4am writing my heart out because its on my mind and soul ... i need to get it out even tho i know it wont help ... but its there on the table .. out of my fingers into the text
i know im going to hurt myself with this ... i already know but if i dont try then why am i here im not going to sit in the shadows and let the opurtunties pass me up because im afraid its going to hurt ... i expect it to hurt i just hafta deal with the fact im going to get hurt i know it ... but she's worth getting hurt a hundred times over i dont know why its what my heart tells me
and its not like i get this way with anyone .... i believe in life you have the people you never forget ... the ones who stay in your heart forever ... we all have them or we will some people call it love .. others this or that i call it the unforgetables the people no matter what happens they may pass your mind but given the right statement a flood of memories come back and you sit there remembering the good times and bad .. thats what she is to me someone i will never forget someone who isnt just a thing someone who you make a comment and a flood of memories and emoctions come back ... someone who is forever either tucked away memory for the right moment to come out or right ontop of your mind but forever none the less
why i dont know ... it happens ... like i said not everyone ... there are plenty of people who we forget ... they might have just been flings or this or that but none the less unless there name is mentioned we have forgotten about them she is definattely not one of them
who is this person i am going on about .... im not telling she knows who she is ... we've already talked about this ... its something thats alot easier on both of us if some of our friends didnt know but whatever its there i still care deeply for her .. if things work out awesome if not .. ok were friends .. and i still care about her deeply and i'll be here for her no matter what happenes
there are so many things i wish ..... but they would just complicate things more ... and she doesnt want that so here i am .... sitting on the side lines watching the game ... here to help patch the wounds but never play...